Really struggling to be happy
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|Mon, 03-12-2012 - 12:28pm|
I know some people may look at how I'm feeling and just call me a selfish person..and I guess I do feel bad because I know so many people WANT to be pregnant and can't be...and here I am pregnant and just miserable.
I have 3 girls...20, 14 and 2 1/2. My husband is alot younger than me. He is 26-me 43. With my 2 1/2 year old I was very excited. I knew he wanted a boy as well, so I agreed to try again. For about a year after my 2 1/2 year old was born, we were really trying. But then I think about after a year I kind of lost hope of it happening and really started to be excited about fixing up my house and taking vacations. I gave away all of my baby stuff and was really in the mindset of being "done".
And then the surprise of being pregnant.And I have to say I really am not happy. I would even say I am unhappy. My husband=ecstatic. My daughters=thrilled. And then me, feeling OLD and horrible. The morning sickness is just awful this time around, I am exhaused and feeling like a big fat cow. I can't see