Here we go again... I hope!

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Registered: 02-11-2012
Here we go again... I hope!
Sat, 02-11-2012 - 9:49am
Hello ladies. I'm Tammy and I am 43 amd just found out yesterday we are pregnant again. My hubby of 25 years and I have a 23 dd a 20 ds and 6 yr old identical twin daughters. We had a devastating loss at 15 weeks in October 2010 of our little Sophia... She was perfect and everything was going well when she simply stopped growing. My body didn't want to let go so we had to have a very traumatic 2 day "procedure" as I was too far along for a regular d&c. We had also had a couple of losses prior to her but very early (1 at 7 weeks blighted ovum w d&c and one at 8.5 weeks w sub chorionic hematoma and d&c) We decided after that late loss we simply couldn't handle having another loss and were very careful for the last year or so not to get pregnant. Obviously we got a little lax because I tested positive yesterday. Heck I don't even know when my cycle started... Just that I thought my period should have started and took a test in the off chance... I honestly thought our baby making days were behind us... Apparently Mama nature disagrees. I called my Ob and he prescribed progesterone suppositories and I have my 1st beta draw Monday. Absolutely terrified of another loss and though we would be over the MOON if this little one comes to fruition... I sure hope if it doesn't it just happens sooner than later... I don't know how we will make it through another loss like Sophie. I keep searching for some positive outcomes for gals my age online... Not a lot of them is there! Any encouraging stories would be lovely. Thank you for letting me share.
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Registered: 10-12-2010
Sat, 02-11-2012 - 10:34am

Congratulations Tammy and welcome.

Sounds like you have a really good doc. I love that he put you on progesterone right away... mine did too, since we know for certain that my 2nd miscarriage and subsequent pregnancy with Jake I had very low levels (I was on Crinone with Jake the day after I found out I was pregnant, and the same with this pregnancy). I don't know what your experience with progesterone is, but for me, it made MS much more severe and my boobs were killing me the entire time I was taking it (MS is gone now but my boobs are still sore). So, be prepared for that. I actually ended up with a scrip for generic Zofran because I was just completely wiped out and the nausea was too much to take.

Being pregnant after a loss is really hard. I'll be 15w tomorrow and I don't think I'm going to feel secure until after we give birth. I imagine it's that way for a lot of women. Please come here as often as you're able. I think it helps immensely being able to talk to others about your fears and concerns.

Best of luck as you embark on this journey. I hope everything goes well.

Mom to Libby/17, William/12, and Jacob/8
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Registered: 03-28-2010
Tue, 02-14-2012 - 11:33am

hi, I just wanted to wish you a sticky bean & happy & healthy 9 months!!:heart:

Kiki (hit my magic age of 45 and no longer TTC),but mom to a beautiful teen DD & 2 angels in heaven & married to my best friend