Feeling down and stressed

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Registered: 06-02-2012
Feeling down and stressed
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Sat, 10-27-2012 - 11:07pm

Lately i've been feeling so overwhelmed and down. I've had a lot things to juggle between my family issues going on, the cutsody battle for my step children, my job, and trying to finish the last semester getting my degree are all driving me crazy. My mom is seriously ill and will not tell me how bad it is. All i know is that shes going to die (and shes only 16 years older than I since she had me when she was young) Its always been like im her mom and now im tore between the aggrivation she brings me and guilt about her illness.   I just feel like I need a serious vacation.... even if i could just deal with the loss of pay for a week I doubt my boss would give me the break, I feel like im so heavily relied on there and usually I can handle it but being pregnant I just feel like I cant deal with everything I normally deal with. I also feel so guilty for being down because I know i should be excited for my baby (and i am definiately excited its pretty much the only thing that has me smiling lately). Normally over this weekend I go all out with halloween decorations and having my friends gathered but this year I just didnt feel  up to it and now im regretting it.  I guess I just need at least a day to worry about me and do something for me I want so bad to go out and have lunch with the girls or get my hair done, just something.  Im stuck in a rut, and my fiance is trying so hard to make me feel better and I love him so much for that.  Sorry about the rant.  I dont even think I got all of my thoughts out clearly lol.  On the upside I get to see my little one on monday and find out if im having a little girl or boy, I CANNOT WAIT! ive also been nervous since I really havnt felt any movement yet, so the ultrasound will definately put some fear at ease and put a big fat smile on my face :). 

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Registered: 06-02-2012
Tue, 10-30-2012 - 9:53pm

Yeah, i've been using my doppler to try and feel better.  it helps a little, but i was just so excited to know the growing was going well... hopefully this month goes by faster than the last month has. 

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Registered: 01-22-2010
Tue, 10-30-2012 - 3:10am

I'm so sorry your u/s has been delayed so long. Do you have a doppler to put your mind at ease for the time bein? *hugs*

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Registered: 06-02-2012
Mon, 10-29-2012 - 6:46pm

well thanks to stupid sandy, no appointment and it couldnt be rescheduled until November 28th!! I'm so upset. :( a whole month more of waiting... 

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Registered: 06-02-2012
Sun, 10-28-2012 - 8:16pm

Thanks ladies, it looks like Hurricane Sandy is giving me a break, probably for the next couple days but now im freaking out that they are going to cancel my appointment now... ive been dying to see my baby and find out the sex.  Praying my appointment is still tomorrow and I can have a nice relaxing day at home for the rest of the day. My fiance gave me my birthday flowers a day early to cheer me up (all florescent roses, i love bright colors!) :) I will feel so much better after tomorrow if this appointment stays in tact.

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Registered: 12-18-2007
Sun, 10-28-2012 - 5:58pm

I'm so sorry everything feels like it's piling up at once.  I hope you can find a way to take a few minutes for yourself.  Sending you hugs.

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Registered: 01-22-2010
Sun, 10-28-2012 - 3:24am

I'm so sorry you're havin such a rough time, you seem to have a lot on your plate at the moment and with a pregnancy on top I'm not surprised you're desperate for a break. Could you maybe have a weekend away so it doesn't effect work? I hope you have a wonderful ultrasound next week and it lifts your spirits *hugs*

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Registered: 03-28-2010
Sun, 10-28-2012 - 12:07am

oh hugs, my girl!

To be truthful, (even tho I am not happy you are going thru all that), I am happy that  I am not the only one, having a crappy time right now!! This week, is the 3rd time, I am in a pregnancy at 7 to 8 weeks. (1st baby, I lost at 7 weeks, 2nd baby I lost at 8 weeks), so it's a VERY anxious time for me, 'hoping' I am still feeling pregnancy symptoms & scared what the u/s may bring me!!  I am soooooo scared & anxious right now & on top of it all, I had a confrontation with my neighbor (that I was VERY sad about, he confronted me), most my neighbors heard (so I am embarrassed too).  I also didn't feel I had support from my hubby or my daughter (which hurt me, even more).  It was a looooonnnng story. I just didn't feel I deserved or needed any of this today, it's all been smoothed over, but I am still down & hurt, I was treated, like the bad guy, within my own family & I didn't need all this frustration today, when I am already anxious about what may (or may not) happen with this pregnancy.  Frown

So, let me send you a big hug, and let you know I am pretty down, in the dumps today too.....and this too shall pass.

Kiki (hit my magic age of 45 and no longer TTC),but mom to a beautiful teen DD & 2 angels in heaven & married to my best friend