Follow-up sonogram:(

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Registered: 02-28-2012
Follow-up sonogram:(
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Tue, 02-12-2013 - 9:58am

Hi gals,

Yesterday I had a follow-up sonogram to check for the baby's growth.  At my 7 week appointment, the baby measured 4 days behind.  Yesterday (8 weeks, 6 days) we saw the growth jump I had been praying for...it now measured 5 days ahead (9 weeks, 4 days) much more in line with what I was expecting.  At first, everything looked good as the doctor measured the baby, but then things started looking problematic.  We were using a new ultrasound machine that the doctor was not familiar with and she couldn't clarify the resolution when she was trying to look for the heartbeat.  Finally, she said the measurements looked great, but she couldn't fine tune the resolution to clearly look at the heart.  She made an appointment for us at another imaging center across town and off we went, with our picture of our LO measuring nice and big.  As I walked back to the imaging room, I asked if my husband could come and was told that he could come back when the radiologist gave us the results.  My anxiety level rose as I approached the same room where my last sonogram was with Will...the room where I heard such devastating words..."incompatible with life", "cystic hygroma, "fatal condition"...I started crying as the sonographer scanned me (with the monitor turned away from me) and I asked, "can you just tell me if you see the heartbeat?"  She patted my leg and said, "I'm sorry.  I can't say anything.  The radiologist will be in to talk with you when we are finished."  She proceeded to scan both abdominally and vaginally for about 20 minutes as I laid there and sobbed, praying that God would breathe life into this tiny heart and that I wouldn't hear the words I was so dreading.  Finally, she finished and left to get my husband and the radiologist.  Once the radiologist came back in, she redid the scan and then told me that the baby's heart was no longer beating.  Based on the size of the baby, they think the heart stopped within the last 24 hours:(  I am just devastated and emotionally drained.  I really thought this was to be our surpise blessing from God after losing Will and now...another baby to mourn.  I'm so sad.

Krista

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Registered: 10-07-2010
Tue, 02-12-2013 - 12:59pm

Oh Krista I'm sitting here at work crying reading your story. I don’t know what to say. Your words are so gut wrenchingly painful. Please know that I am thinking of you and will continue to pray for you. I normally say I’ll pray for comfort but being in your shoes I know there is no comfort. I will pray for strength for you. I had a similar experience when I had my second loss. It’s like a horror movie you can’t get out of. I am so sorry for your losses. Mellissa

 

 

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Registered: 01-22-2010
Tue, 02-12-2013 - 1:17pm

I am so, so sorry Krista. I know there is nothin I can say to make you feel better but know that you are in my thoughts at this devastatin time *hugs*

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Registered: 05-18-2010
Tue, 02-12-2013 - 2:32pm

Oh no Krista I am so sorry you are going through this. All I can say is you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

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Registered: 02-23-2006
Tue, 02-12-2013 - 8:13pm
Oh Krista, I am sooo sorry :( It never gets easy. We shouldn't have to go through this ever, let alone multiple times. I am keeping you in my prayers.

Karri

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Registered: 02-28-2012
Sat, 02-16-2013 - 11:10pm

Thank you so much girls.  I really appreciate your kind words and prayers!  I'm doing better emotionally, but physically I just wish my pregnancy symptoms would go away.  I threw up again tonight after brushing my teeth and I still am nauseous all day.  I have my D&C scheduled for Friday morning.  Maybe after that things will start to go back to normal.  I also wish I could have seen the u/s monitor when the doctors decided the heart was no longer beating.  My husband said he saw the baby without the flickering heart, but I wish for my peace of mind that I could have seen it as well.  If only I had insisted, but I was in such a state of shock.

I wish you all a wonderful, happy healthy pregnancy!

Krista

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Registered: 01-22-2010
Sun, 02-17-2013 - 12:09pm

Might they let you have another u/s before your d&c?

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Registered: 06-02-2012
Sun, 02-17-2013 - 9:57pm

I'm so sorry for your loss... Frown.  Nothing makes the pain any easier, when I lost my baby I didn't see him either but my fiance did.  Not sure if I would feel better if I had or not... it is such an emotional time.  Praying for a healthy recovery for you both physically and emotionally. 

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Registered: 02-28-2012
Wed, 02-20-2013 - 3:23am

I asked the nurse last week if I could have another sonogram, but she was not very friendly and almost sounded offended that I would even ask.  She said my insurance wouldn't cover it.  I just went with that and figured that my symptoms would fade before the D&C and give me some peace of mind; but they really haven't.  I did ask for the radiologist's report to be faxed to me so I could read what she said.  The nurse was very cold about it and said she didn't know if that would be allowed, but she would ask.  I guess the doctor okayed it because my husband said it came to his office, but he forgot to bring it home:(  I really like my doctor, but it is so hard to deal with her nurse!  I'm thinking about calling and asking for the doctor to call me back.  I just don't know how to get around the nurse.  Now I feel like I am running out of time as my D&C is only two days away....

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Registered: 01-22-2010
Wed, 02-20-2013 - 3:58am

I would defo ask to speak to the Dr, it will haunt you forever if you don't try everythin you can