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|Fri, 02-01-2013 - 11:09am|
Hi all! I’m Mellissa (33) I have one living son Alex (8). I am married to Will(37).
We had a baby born by induction at 21 weeks, Matthew, because his heart stopped in 2010; reason unknown. Then the 2012 I got pregnant again of course with no reason for Matthew to die they said everything would be fine. And it wasn’t that baby died at 13 weeks; another boy, Elijah. Still reason unknown. And now I’m pregnant with #4 due Sept 26th! And of course like any mother I have looked and looked for a reason that Matthew and Elijah passed. And I fell once during each pregnancy now I’m convinced that’s why they died.
That brings me to this morning I fell down 2 stairs because of ice. This is the 2ndicing we have had I was being so careful. My butt is sooo busied all black and blue in a line from the steps. My 8 year old was with me when I fell I got up and when straight back inside a preceded to the bathroom to cry because I am now 100% convinced this baby is dead too. Poor little guy came to the bathroom door and said “I can hear you crying, does it hurt that bad?” I wanted to say “No, but my heart does” of course I just opened the bathroom door showed him my scraped hand and said it stung that’s why I was crying.
This sucks! I haven’t called the doctor I know what they will say. I didn’t fall on my belly and I’m only 6 weeks along. And really as much as I would want them to get in there and perform fetus CPR J they can’t do anything. I don’t have any spotting or cramping. But with both Matthew and Elijah I didn’t either. Both of them I went in for a routine ultrasounds and they didn’t have heartbeats. I have a early ultrasound for viability at 7.5 on the 12th.
Sorry it bum everybody out with this post. I just haven’t told anybody but DH and can’t talk to anybody about it. Or let them know why I’m being such a B today J