Need a break....

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Registered: 06-28-2011
Need a break....
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Fri, 11-25-2011 - 11:50pm

....this may seem off but I just really need a break from all the worry I'm experiencing this time around. It is bad enough to be pregnant after a loss but it is even worse when my pregnancy with my rainbow baby is so hard. I have had off and on spotting since 7 weeks that always freaks me out. I will be 20 weeks on Sunday and for days I've been dealing with cramps and braxton hicks contractions. Today I went to the bathroom and I had enough spotting for it to be on my panty liner not just on the toilet paper. I know my little man is moving around and so far as I know he is okay but I can't help but worry. I am so over worrying. Every time this happens my stomach just drops and I can't help but cry. So far my doctor has been unable to find a reason for my bleeding and I just wish it would stop. I go for my anatomy scan on Tuesday and I really, really hope that everything looks great with my little guy. I'm not sure how much more stress I can take. I am so grateful to be pregnant with this miracle and I'm so afraid to lose him. This PAL brain is the pits. Sorry for the rant everyone but I had to get this off my chest and this seems to be the only place that I can and not be judged.

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Sat, 11-26-2011 - 2:04am

Awwww...I'm so sorry this pg has been so hard. I can't imagine having to deal with unexplained spotting for weeks. Your doctor has no idea where it's coming from? That's so frustrating! I'm glad your LO is moving around, though. At least, hopefully, it's reassuring to feel him move.

The best of luck on your ultrasound next Tuesday. I'm sure everything will be fine. I pray the bleeding stops soon. {{{{HUGS}}}}

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Sat, 11-26-2011 - 2:21pm

Sorry you have the spotting to deal with, I hope your dr. can figure out why it's happening. I can imagine that would be very scary on top of already having a PAL brain :(. I have read that some women spot on and off throughout their pregnancy, so hopefully it's nothing. P&PT for your anatomy scan, I'm sure it will go great!

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Sat, 11-26-2011 - 3:08pm
I'm so sorry you're having a tough pregnancy. I know how you're feeling. I had my 2nd rainbow baby in october, and the whole pregnancy was just 1 worry after another. I was suffering from some serious anxiety over it all. If you need to, please consider finding a therapist. I did and it did help a little. This pregnancy was so much worse than my 2nd (1st rainbow baby) physically and emotionally. ((Hugs))
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Sun, 11-27-2011 - 6:21am
I had two weeks of spotting (7th and 8th week) and the OB said the placenta was just digging into a thicker than normal lining. No SCH to be seen. I know how pannicky I was then, I can't imagine how you feel to still be spotting. I'm so sorry. I am having my first rainbow baby and my DH hates how worried I am all the time. PAL really sucks. I think getting it off your chest is one of the best things you can do. I hope your anatomy scan can shed more light on things.
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Sun, 11-27-2011 - 9:28pm

Rian - I hope that you've been feeling better since you posted this.

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Sun, 11-27-2011 - 10:28pm

Thank you everyone for your responses! Thankfully the spotting has stopped but the cramping is still there. Sometimes it even makes my back hurt. Nothing really seems to ease them up at this point; they just come and go as they please. I'm tryiing not to worry (that much...lol). Looking forward to Tuesday! One more day!!!

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Mon, 11-28-2011 - 12:04am
I'm so sorry I kow how scary that is. I hope all is well at your anatomy scan. HUGS!!!!
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Mon, 11-28-2011 - 9:01am

Glad the spotting has stopped.