Still in limbo and at the end of my rope

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Registered: 02-23-2006
Still in limbo and at the end of my rope
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Mon, 10-29-2012 - 12:58pm

So I am allegedly 7+ weeks pregnant, but I have had nothing but neutral news since the start...first my numbers weren't quite doubling, which some were worried about and some didn't see as a problem. Overall, the numbers were way under the 72 hr minimum, so I tried to keep faith. The first u/s showed a bleed present, but a nice gestational sac. My numbers finally started doubling correctly, and the second scan showed a yolk sac...but I appeared to be a week behind. This could be due to an abnormal pregnancy or the slow doubling times. They told me to come back today and it was basically do or die. Once again today the bleed is present, everything has grown, but they were not positive they saw a heart beat and I am still measuring behind for a week. The nurse was nice and tried to say that if I truly am a week behind, then we might not see a hb and not to panic. They really couldn't seem to get good pictures either. Then the dr comes in and basically is a downer and says that all hope is not lost, but he is concerned. I have to go back Friday and have another scan and he absolutely must see a hb or he will send me to a specialist and go from there. I am just so frustrated. Nothing is ever clear cut. I want to believe that everything will still be okay, but for 29 days I have been obsticle after obsticle and I have no real answers. I am just at the end of my rope and now I get to do some more waiting :/

Karri

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Registered: 12-18-2007
Tue, 10-30-2012 - 12:25pm

((HUGS))  I know how aweful waiting and inconclusive ultrasounds can be.  With my DD I had a threatened miscarriage at 13 weeks.  It took 2 weeks and 3 ultrasounds just to get an answer about what caused the severe bleeding.  Then it was another 13 weeks before they could say the issue was resolved and we were back to a normal chance of survival.

It's hard to keep the faith and it's hard to protect yourself and it's hard to think of anything else.  When things got really bad for me, I'd have to find a way to stop thinking in medical terms and start thinking of the little baby I had at that moment.  Usually for me that meant singing a song to my belly.  I don't know why it helped, but for me, it would ratchet the anxiety down a bit for the moment. I hope you can find something that helps you.  Even if it's just venting to us!

Sticky baby vibes to you!

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Registered: 01-22-2010
Tue, 10-30-2012 - 3:00am

Waiting is the WORST. I wish they could give you an answer and put you out of your misery either way, sometimes bein told it's  over is better news than we don't know as at least you can start to move on. I'm defo not sayin it is over because, as the nurse said, you could be a week behind and that would be why things didnt start as you would expect and you still can't see the hb. I hope Fri finally gives you answers, KUP

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Registered: 05-01-2012
Mon, 10-29-2012 - 3:20pm

Big hugs. I am so sorry.  You must be so frustrated and worn out from all of that worry. I can only imagine. I'll be thinking of you and waiting for your updates. (((HUGS)))

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Registered: 05-01-2012
Mon, 10-29-2012 - 3:19pm

Big hugs. I am so sorry.  You must be so frustrated and worn out from all of that worry. I can only imagine. I'll be thinking of you and waiting for your updates. (((HUGS)))