Bittersweet

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Registered: 10-27-2011
Bittersweet
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Sat, 11-19-2011 - 12:00am

So, my most recent loss of my 3 MCs

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Sat, 11-19-2011 - 2:27am
BIG HUGS!!!!!!
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Sat, 11-19-2011 - 1:43pm

I totally understand how you feel. I had a miscarriage in April, and would have been due this coming Monday, 11/21. It's hard not to think about it and be sad for the loss. I don't know how you couldn't be? Though I have to admit before I had a loss I guess I never truly would have understood. I'm so happy to be pregnant again and 15 weeks along before my expected due date for the last pregnancy. But it doesn't take away the feelings of loss from the last one, either.

Anyway, I don't have any advice but just wanted to sympathize. I'll be thinking of you and I hope you're able to get through the next few weeks as easily as possible.

Lee, Mommy to DD Noelle born January 2010. BFP in February 2011, lost pregnancy at 10 weeks in April 2011. BFP in August 2011, hopeful and happy to be expecting our baby due May 9, 2012.

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Registered: 12-28-2010
Sat, 11-19-2011 - 1:54pm

It is quite bittersweet to have your friend's baby born when you should be holding your baby in your arms. I know it's not fair :( My best friend and my sister both had babies this summer and I while I was overjoyed for them, there is an overwhelming sadness and emptiness from not having your own baby to hold.

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Sun, 11-20-2011 - 1:13am
No, they never really do. Mine have left their memories permanent in my heart. Both my girls were born on the 1 year anniversaries of my 2 losses (completely different dates even). Talk about bittersweet. I had 2 friends on FB who had babies the same month I was due last time. I still look at their babies and think, "Hannah should be doing all those things right now if she had been born in May". It's still hard sometimes to see their babies, but I'm so happy with my daughter. I understand how you're feeling.

Thinking of your angels tonight. ((hugs))
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Sun, 11-20-2011 - 10:04am

Difficult emotions to tease out, indeed.

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Registered: 10-27-2011
Sun, 11-20-2011 - 1:58pm
As if this wasn't hard enough...
I was overjoyed to see my friend's baby on Facebook but learned today that her son and she have not been doing well. Her baby was born not breathing and has been in the NICU ever since. He did start breathing on his own but docs are concerned that his heart is weak. My friend has only been able to hold him for a brief moment and then he was whisked away to the NICU.

My friend has had to have a couple of blood transfusions. I know what it's like to have low blood cell count so I haven't been by to visit her yet. She is probably beyond exhausted and hasn't even been well enough to go see her son in the NICU.

I want to go see her and may try to tomorrow. I hope she's well enough to have visitors.
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