itll be little beans EDD soon...

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Registered: 06-22-2008
itll be little beans EDD soon...
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 9:24pm

This sunday will be my last little beans due date...which was hard enough knowing it was five days from my birthday....but I find that i sometimes wish I still was carrying that baby instead of Carsyn sometimes....although I love Carsyn to death and feel horrible for feeling this way...i think it's just Carsyn was my little miracle so close to loosing the last bean....

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Registered: 12-19-2007
Fri, 03-11-2011 - 2:28pm
Don't worry Cheyenne, you won't feel that way after Carsyn is born. :) I had a hard time completely bonding with DD before she was born. I was just constantly waiting for something horrible to happen. After she was born, I got past all of that. We bonded instantly, and she is still my little miracle baby. I couldn't possibly love her more. (I love my son JUST as much, but he was born before I had any losses so his pg was definitely taken for granted). I hope you can find something to do that day, maybe to remember your lost LO and celebrate little Carsyn. :)
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