37 weeks pregnant and alone
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|Sat, 04-17-2010 - 8:25pm|
Hi, I am new to this site. I need some ears and shoulders and to know that I am not alone.
I am having my baby on April 28th ( planned c section) I am 11 days away from giving birth to this precious angel. My boyfriend left April 2nd. I am so angry, bitter, hurt, shocked, scared etc etc. Here is the story..........
We have been friends for 10 years. I have a 5 year old daughter already by a previous relationship that was very quick, short and abusive. I chose to ' go it alone' with my daughter for our safety. So anyway my 'good' friend and I have been hanging out occassionaly over the past 10 years as friends and the last 1-2 years it has became a bit more. I mean nothing serious but a lil more romantic. I was happy being single and just hanging with him. He wanted more - or so I thought. We finally became intimate in august of 2009. I was scared of our relationship as I thought we made better friends than couple and he said he was sad and hurt. I then found out I was pregnant. I told him and we both decided to try our relationship. He said he was so excited. We never really seen each other "All" the time. We usually hung out 1 time a week or 1 time every 2 weeks. I figured we were both just busy. I did have concerns about our relationship though and questioned it many times to him and he said " when we move in together it will be better". We decided to move in together at end of November 2009. We were excited about going forward with this new life ( or so I thought). I was looking forward to the family life. My 5 year old was excited as well. My belly was growing and I thought things were good. Until about 1 week after living together he decided it was better for him to sleep in basement at nights. he would go down there and watch sports, drink beer and sleep down there. I woke up one morning and went down in basement to wake him and found toilet paper all over the ground. He went to washroom and I noticed his cell phone was also in the bed. i checked it only to find that he had been having phone sex or shall is ay " Sexting" with at least 3 different girls. I was heartbroken, to say the least. I started crying and getting upset and at first he tried to lie and then finally admitted it. It was very disturbing to read what I read. It was very dirty and perverted talk back and forth. I decided to still try to make this relationnship work. I cried about it a week and a half later and he said i should be over it by now as it was in past. he never gave me any explanation or any insight. He said they were just friends that he was doing that with. I was so hurt. I tried continously t make it work. he continued to sleep with his cell phone and sleep in basement and tried stating it was because my