scared to go to the doctor for my first ultrasound

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Registered: 10-08-2010
scared to go to the doctor for my first ultrasound
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Fri, 10-08-2010 - 11:55am

Im currently 6 weeks pregnant. I am divorced but while we was together we tried for 3 years to have a baby. I wanted one more than anything in the world. We did lots of tests and the docs told us we both where fine, the timing must not be right..well we never got pregnant. Now we are divorced and i was dating this amazing guy. He seemed so perfect, and while i was on birth control i got pregnant. We both was shocked but was both very very happy. he went to the first doctors appointment with me. The other day he told me he couldnt go to the 1st ultrasound appointment because he has class that day. i couldnt believe what i was hearing..i was appauled. I got so upset and said alot of very hurtful things and havent spoke to him since. i feel like my world is crumbling. I dont want to go to the doc monday for my 1st ultrasound..he was suppose to be standing beside me holding my hand throughout all of this and now hes not. I keep seeing my whole pregnancy playing out in my head and im alone and i dont want to be and its so scary. everyone keeps saying how im so strong and i can get through this and once i see my baby for the first time in ultrasound, im gonna be happy, and i have to pull myself together for my baby...but i seriously dont want to..i want to give up. i know i have a baby inside of me right now but i feel so alone.

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Registered: 11-13-2008

(((HUGS))) I'm sorry that you are going through such a tough time.