single and almost 18 weeks pregnant.

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single and almost 18 weeks pregnant.
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Wed, 08-29-2012 - 3:19pm

hi my names brooke. im due febuary 2nd 2013. i've been single since i was 9 weeks pregnante my BD was emotionaly and physicaly abusive. i had him arrested when he hit me when i was pregnant. and i will never look back or allow him around my child. i was with him for 2 years. i was afraid to be alone and since he left i moved back in with my parents. all the mental abuse he put me through made it so i was scared to be in my appartment alone.  Hes going to jail for a year most likely for what he did to me and then he has other charges against him where he could 3 for thoes.  my worst fear is when my baby gets older and finds out why his/her fathers not in his/her life that she/he might blame me. i mean ik its not my fault. i just feel so crappy because the one whos going to suffer is my child. and even tho i havent even met my baby yet i love squirt(the babys nickname) more than i love anyone elts on this earth. and i dont want squirt to ever be in pain... i could really use some support... 

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Registered: 02-24-2011
Thu, 08-30-2012 - 12:14pm
Hi, lil_mama2213

I just wanted to say how much I admire you for getting yourself and your child out of an abusive relationship. It isn't easy to do, and it took a lot of courage to walk away. Kudos to you! I know you worry that your child will suffer by not having his father around, but honestly you are probably saving him/her from a life of abuse. Take comfort in the fact that you are protecting your unborn child from this type of life just speaks volumes about what kind of great mom you'll be. Huge (((HUGS))) coming your way!
Hope, Mommy to Spencer Expecting Baby #2 09/17/12