Single and strugglin...rant/intro..sorry

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Registered: 05-28-2007
Single and strugglin...rant/intro..sorry
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Tue, 08-10-2010 - 8:24pm
I wish I was at peace as some of the other posters are. And I am sometimes, but the mood swings are just crazy and I get upset about the situation pretty often. It's starting to get better...uhg. I am seven months pregnant and I can count the times I have my baby's father since i got pregnant on one hand. It's just really sad because we were together for about a year and half...he proposed to me on christmas of 2009 and then in january he wanted to start trying to have a baby. So that is what we did, we tried in Jan with nothing and in February I was blessed with my daughter who is due in November. He has three other kids so I don't understand why he would have freaked out...it's not like the prospect of becoming a father was too much for him. No, I know why he left and if that's how he wants it then screw him. He left because before I got pregnant, we were both party people. We both drank pretty much everyday and I told him that if we were going to have a baby, that our party days were over. I guess he must have thought I was kidding because he stuck around for a couple weeks but when I wouldn't condone his drinking he of course chose alcohol over us. Apparently both of his other exes that he has kids with drank, smoked and did whatever else while they were pregnant and he thought I was going to be the same way. I, as you probably guessed, am not. I quit smoking and drinking when we first spoke of getting pregnant and i started taking vitamins. I have changed my whole life and my life's path for my precious Gabriella, and he hasn't so much as bought her one onesie. I have bought everything she has for her which has been a real struggle for me. And at first, his excuse for not getting her anything was he wanted to wait until we found out what I was having which is understandable to some degree but I found out in june and still nothin...surprise! Now he says its because he has no money, but he still manages to get drunk everyday so I have a hard time believing that.
whoa. I am going to cut my rant off there...apologies for the length and erraticness of that post.
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Registered: 11-13-2008
Thu, 08-12-2010 - 5:40pm

(((HUGS))) Kali, I'm so sorry that he's not being there for you.

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Thu, 08-12-2010 - 7:34pm
Not too bad...thanks for askin!! I'm past the point of all the early symptom joy (morning sickness, heartburn...etc) and I am now in the third trimester so it's more difficult to go to sleep but other than that, I am doing really well!! Just have a lot of appointments to make all the time. ahh..almost done tho hahaha
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Fri, 08-13-2010 - 12:48pm

The third trimester does have it's ups and downs, at least you are in the final stretch!

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Sat, 08-14-2010 - 12:15am
I dont understand why men do the things they do. my boyfriend and i was trying and we didnt get pregnant for 7 months. then everything went down hill and we broke up. and
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Sat, 08-14-2010 - 1:49am
Yea it's a crappy deal sorry that you are going thru it too. I talked to the father of my baby yesterday and I think he might have gone back to doing meth. after 2 1/2 years of being clean, its just so ridiculous. I would never be with a crackhead even if i wasnt pregnant but I wont allow my daughter to be brought up by some one who deals with that crap. Makes my skin crawl to think about it. The alcoholism was bad enough but there is no way in hell i will stand for this. but he will probably get busted and go to prison so screw it...uhg.
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