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|Wed, 07-07-2010 - 12:37pm|
I am 8 months pregnant with a little girl. In December I found out my husband was having an affair, and was unapologetic about it. 2 weeks later I found out I was pregnant.
I have been called crazy, a whore, a slut, white trash. So many things by my husband a man I have been in love with for a very long time, my best friend. I did nothing wrong except be in the military and work in a job where I was away alot. I am currently living with his parents because he threw all my stuff out of the house and I had no where to go or even a bed to sleep in.
He will not let me talk to my stepkids or do anything for them. I miss them so much. I feel like I can't breathe. He wants my little girl now a little girl that only I have been worried about. There is going to be a custody battle. I am in the military and he makes 100k a year. I have to file for divorce and I am not ready to be divorced from someone that I keep hoping will return to me.
I want for the last 8 months to never have taken place. To wake up tomorrow and find out that it was all a horrific dream. I have forgotten how to breathe and I just want my baby to be safe. It hurts me so much that she's coming into this world in so much conflict. It doesn't seem fair to her. I am hurting so bad and all these decisions that I have to make are weighing so heavily on me. I am tired of being so sad.
Please pray for me or at least think of me. I am tired of being alone and I am scared.