38 yrs old---Unplanned 8 wks along with Twins
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|Tue, 07-31-2012 - 5:40pm|
I wanted to share my story...even though things seem to be going better.
I have been dating my boyfriend for 8 months....things have gone will, only a few bumps. On July 4th I was out on his boat when I realized my period was 2 days late. I went home that night and took a pregnancy test....truly thinking it would be negative. (I have been on the pill for like 12 yrs now!) It was POSITIVE! My instint reaction was to say "bull****" and throw it away. I started drinking a big glass of water and took a 2nd test about an hour later....also positive.
I then went into a state of panic and called my best friend. I headed to Walgreens and bought the most expensive tests they have available. Two more of those came up positive. I cried myself to sleep that night....and cried non-stop for the next 5 days. I went to my first appt alone and cried through THAT too!
I waited 2 days to tell my boyfriend....his response was NOT positive. He was angry and immediately decided we should abort it..
In the last 3 wks he has gone the opposite direction...becoming very supportive. We have almost all my belongings moved into his house now.
I am still coming to terms with my 'beans' and the fact that my life is about to change forever. I think I am stuck in a place somewhere close to exceptance....though still haven't reached a place of 'joy'
It would seem every day brings a new set of worries....things that never occured to me before.