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|Sun, 08-02-2009 - 2:58pm|
Does anyone else feel like all of their childhood dreams are floating away?? I am 25, in a stable relationship, we both have degrees, jobs, insurance, everything physically that we need. But emotionally, I feel so overwhelmed! I keep crying picturing myself in a wedding dress walking down an aisle and knowing that that particular scenario has to change. if we do get married, it will be quickly and privately. I don't want to get married just because i am having a kid. i dont want that sort of cloud hanging over us. but i also know that if we don't get married, things are going to even more complicated with parental rights, habitation, families, last names, insurance, everything. we both come from very traditional families who would not be ok with us remaining unmarried.
he is not taking the news well. i mean, he isn't angry and anything at me, but he spent the night vomiting. he is not sure what he wants to do. keeps saying this is not the way way he wanted to do things. i want to help him, but i dont know how. should i start trying to make the baby seem real?? start having him read parenting books?? talk about something off topic to keep him distracted?? listen to him say "i dont know" over and over?
i dont even want to bring up the word marriage first. it makes me feel like i am setting a trap or something. maybe i am old-fashioned, but i at least want that discussion to be his move.
i feel sooo incredibly sick all the time. i got anti-nausea pills from the doc, but they are not helping.
sorry for the stream of consciousness. i just want somewhere to vent.