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|Tue, 07-01-2003 - 6:31am|
Kevin took the whole thing as a joke. OK, OK, I know it was his cover because there were tears in his eyes after we left and all through dinner, and I know this is CRUSHING to him ... knowing that he has a problem and isn't 'normal' and that he needs help. I just wish I had the answer. The doc thinks we should take baseball away from him ... but that scares me because I don't want him to 'not care' about baseball like he gets with the other things we take away from him. AND, that's the one outlet he gets during the week (other than time at camp.) He doesn't have a lot of friends that he hangs out with during the week, and when he's playing baseball, he's with other kids, having fun, running out, being physical, and getting rid of some of that energy. AND, if he doesn't have that, it's 2-3 hours he's home with me ... so WHO exactly is being punished???
Kevin said that I talk too much ... guess it's that mother in me trying to rationalize with him ... and the doc sort of agreed. Not that I'm too wordy (well, you all know me, so you know that to be the case, LOL) but because I need to stop explaining myself or repeating myself to Kevin. State the facts and let him live with the consequences if he doesn't comply. Period. I need to try, of course, but it's hard to tune out the endless whining when I do try to ignore him. Guess I need to pray for some more patience ... which I'm seriously lacking these days.
On meds or off, there isn't much change ... In addition, I'm definitely seeing the pre-puberty stuff going on (oh, the joys of motherhood) so life is definitely a challenge. Not sure what I'll do to get a break or how I'll survive some days. Right now, however, things just aren't great.