DS has 1st p-doc appt today ...
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|Tue, 05-27-2003 - 9:58am|
The licensed therapist we are seeing through this practice has not really been any help whatsoever. She has really not given us any concrete things to try with ds, behaviorally-speaking (oh, and she spaced and forgot about an appt we had with her this weekend, on top of everything else, so dh and I were not too happy about thait either). It is one of their requirements that patients see a therapist before and in tandem with seeing a p-doc. Seeing another therapist/psychologist doesn't "count" - has to be one of theirs. I am not ready to bail on this practice yet -- it took a bunch of jumping through hoops to find a reputable p-doc who would see us and who participates in our health insurance -- but I am just feeling unsettled and a bit betrayed that we may be wasting time that could have been better used in getting more effective treatment for ds (yes, I am a type-A person ... so good of you to notice, LOL!)
I am SUCH a wuss, I know. I am feeling like a totally inadequate mom because all of this is throwing me so much today. Is ignorance bliss, or is information power?? I typically am a staunch believer in the latter philosophy, but this morning I'm not quite so sure. To top it off, I am feeling very resentful of dh about all of this -- though I know that is a cr*ppy, cr*ppy way to feel, so I feel guilty as well -- because all of this schtick runs rampant in his family so ds was kind of a "sitting duck" as far as his propensity to have these issues. Obviously, something that dh is more than a tad sensitive about, and something that I can't really talk about with him because it isn't fair or productive to make him feel bad. I think I need some chocolate.
We had the morning from h*ll this morning, my anger- and frustration-management skills S*CKED (more guilt), and I had actually forgotten about the p-doc appointment (it had been re-scheduled by their office and actually bumped earlier than the one we originally had scheduled) until I checked my PDA just before taking ds to the bus stop. Yikes! DS is just bummed that he may miss a spelling test (yeah, the kid loves that stuff!) and recess. I will also have to give him lunch in the car, since the appt is at noon and I plan to take him back to school afterward. (Parenthetical vent: Why don't those who treat children have more kid-friendly hours, for heaven's sake?!! I don't want to work evenings or weekends either, but I didn't choose that type of profession - and I actually to work evenings when I have to hit a deadline! I hate pulling him from school (and he hates being pulled) but to get a late afternoon or early evening appt is ridiculously difficult. Let's not even talk about appts on weekends!)
I hope that no one minds all of this rambling and whining - I am feeling very alone and kind of scared right now and I thought that you guys might "get it". Oh, and dh -- who is usually great about going along for this type of stuff -- never wrote down this appt and now he can't attend because he has a conflict at work. I am usually a pretty upbeat and caring person, with a decent sense of humor even, and I hope that my incessant complaining and worrying on this and other posts has not put you all off.
Thanks for listening - I'll let you know how we fare. Any positive thoughts would be greatly appreciated!!! ~ ruth