Having a rough day
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|Fri, 05-09-2003 - 10:29am|
Jamie is swinging back and forth between a raging lunatic, I've already been scratched and bitten, to sticking to me like velcro. I see a few moments of the "real him" in between but by Friday I'm so bloody tired of it all I have to draw on all my resolve to interact with him based on his mood of the moment.
I have no way to rate his mood today, he's just exploding with no warning. He's going from 0-60 in less than a second so I have no opportunity to defuse or divert. I almost didn't give him his Ritalin this morning and then I thought well that's not what the doctor said and did it anyway. I'm kicking myself for it now.
He is def not getting any benefit out of it today. He's all about fantasy today and he's getting carried away with his imagination.
Oh yeah, yesterday he scared the daylights out of me, he did something I've never seen him do before. We have this ramp that goes to our shed that my SO built to get his snow blower and lawn mower out of it. It has no railing and until now Jamie has been afraid to stand on it. Well yesterday he got on it and was hanging his toes over the edge telling me he could fly off it. It's 8 feet high on one end and there are boulders below where he would have jumped. My neighbour and I both saw what was going on and I motioned to him to go over and he managed to move him off it without altercation. If I had tried I'm sure he would have jumped. He was convinced he was invincible and nothing could hurt him.
It took me 30 minutes to lure him inside and set the alarm so I would know if he tried to go back out. He ended up staying up until midnight and still wouldn't sleep even after I lay down with him. He slept until 9 this morning and woke up all grumpy and miserable.
I've got to get him off stimulants. I don't know how much longer I can do "as the doctor ordered" and not take him off all his meds.
Anyway, I'm one tired Mommy and for Mother's Day just would like a day in a hotel with a spa and room service, a few good books and some quiet.