I need some rest....rant

I give him his Ritalin SR on Friday, he's fine and calms down and acts normally playing and using his toys properly.

On Sat/Sun/Mon, I give him his ritalin and he goes into something akin to a trance living in a fantasy world that I'm not invited into unless I participate as one of the characters he's assigned me. For example I couldn't get him to listen at all yesterday unles I introduced myself as the pink power ranger.

When his Father came home of course he had no patience for this at all, just wanted to do dinner and chill out and he took him aside and talked to him about listening. Jamie just jumped up and down the whole time like a mexican jumping bean babbling about nothing in particular and making no eye contact.

Dad told him to start listening and Jamie said no, my listening ears have run out of batteries. By the time I got his clonodine in him and he was starting to get a little drowsy he climbed up on the couch and curled up beside me and told me he couldn't go to sleep until the game boy in his head stopped playing, he doesn't have a game boy.

When he's like this he's so out of control it's scary. Not once yesterday did I establish eye contact with him. It's like he was on a mission switching from one bizarre activity to another, punctuated with periods of running around the house giggling and squealing.

I am so burnt. I need someone to take him for a week and let me slug around and sleep all day. His mood swings are opposite to mine and when he's winging I'm sleeping and vice versa. You would think we would feed off each others emotional energy, but it's just not happening.

Oh yeah and this "Mummy do" has got to go. He won't let anyone but me feed/bath/give meds/assist in dressing. If Dad tries to give him his pills he just spits them out on the floor laughs and runs in the other direction looking for me.

Last night he refused to go to bed in his room without me sitting on the end of his bed because he said if I didn't I might disappear, or he might disappear and he'd never be able to see me again.

I can hear him now.....Ritalin is starting to take effect....he's just geared. I just want to hide under a rock.

Sorry so long

Elspeth