Things aren't going well ..
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|Fri, 09-12-2003 - 6:29am|
But it's the 'I don't care' attitude that I'm having such trouble with. I see him at baseball last night ... Kevin loves the game, and is very good at it. Last night, he's playing short stop and he and the 2nd baseman are goofing off during the first few innings. When Kevin gets pulled in to pitch (bases loaded, no outs) instead of seeing the 'situation' it was more like "ha, ha, look at me, I get to pitch." Sigh! Totally 'off' for Kevin. When DH tried to talk to him afterward, it was all "I don't care." And, he doesn't. He doesn't care that he's acting like an idiot ... he doesn't care that instead of doing a simple task he's asked to do, he can lie on the couch in the fetal position and waste the morning ... he doesn't care that I look at him and think I should put him in a mental hospital instead of taking him to his baseball tournament this weekend ... He doesn't care about anything. He doesn't care what anyone thinks of him, or about anyone else ... and it totally infuriates me at the same time as it's breaking my heart!
I knew he hadn't outgrown this ... but gosh, I was enjoying the reprieve. I'm not ready for another round of this. I'm trying to cut him some slack, and realize that he's had to go though many transitions in the past few weeks (middle school and all the crap associated with that) but it just kills me sometimes how defiant and uncaring he can be.
Sorry ... been a rough couple of hours ... I've been up most of the night, just unable to sleep, totally on edge. I was really enjoying the 'normalcy' we were experiencing.