Bitten off more than I can chew!!!

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Bitten off more than I can chew!!!
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Wed, 02-24-2010 - 8:44am

Ugh!! So I applied for this pt job as Sunday caregiver for a family with a 17 ASD girl. It seemed like a no brainer...I know ASD, they needed help, I thought I needed something other than my 4 walls and kids etc. It's been a long drawn out process with the interview, paperwork etc etc (more than I ever had to do when I applied to teach middle school). Anyway I may or may not be starting this Sunday, (haven't had the go ahead from the agency that pays me yet).

Now though, I truly feel like I've bitten off way more than I can chew. I mean I am a caregiver from 7am-8:30pm Mon-Thurs (7am-4:30 Fri). Swim season is finally over so dh can get home earlier on Fridays and our weekends are finally ours again. So WTH was I thinking I wanted to eat up half of it caring for yet ANOTHER ASD child? Am I truly crazy????????

I finally told dh last night how I was feeling....I could sense he was disappointed in me, (although he never said so). I feel like such a dumb failure. To top it all I go see the hand surgeon March 8th and I KNOW in my heart of hearts surgery will be involved to relieve the swelling tissue and nerve entrapment. I need to be honest with this family and myself....but how to tell them?????

I am such a dumb idiot sometimes!!!! Thanks for the read!

Dee

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Wed, 02-24-2010 - 9:58am

First of all please don't beat yourself up.

Susan, mom to Sam 11 and Connor 9
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Wed, 02-24-2010 - 4:40pm

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Wed, 02-24-2010 - 5:57pm

Thanks ladies,

did some soul searching, and like you LR I am also Adhd and prone to fantastic thoughts etc and then when I can tell the woods from the trees reality slaps me upside the head. Normally though I'd have started and after a few weeks decided it wasn't working. At least this time (perhaps because I am actually medicated) the epiphany occurred earlier.

It's not for me it seems,

Dee