I am back and had a very distrubing....

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I am back and had a very distrubing....
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Wed, 07-06-2005 - 8:30pm

night last night.

Has anyone here dreamed that something bad has happened to their children? I dreampt (is that a word?) that Jimmy died. All I know is that DH and I allowed him to go somewhere and he died I don't know what he was doing but I do know that I don't remember a car involved (for those of you who know he has his drivers license). I had to work today a long day and I was just not into it. My job is to help people with their problems and all I wanted to do was talk about my dream but I couldn't. I wanted to come home and be with Jimmy and when I got home he went off to youth group shortly after I arrived. It scares me because some of my dreams have come true but I can't keep him in a plastic bubble either. I have been praying that God keeps him safe. I am almost in tears typing this out now.

I am going to go for a while but felt drawn to post this message.

Please pray for Jimmy.

Thanks-

Linda

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Fri, 07-08-2005 - 8:49pm

WOW Renee...see something told me to message you that night. We are going to have to listen to the Higher power.... :-)

I am feeling much better.

I have been thinking you know if I have been worried about anything specifically. I'm not...Jimmy is doing great he wants a job and I have encouraged that he even got an application and got his references ON HIS OWN! My goodness he is growing up and being much more independent.

Thanks for responding my friend!

Linda

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Fri, 07-08-2005 - 8:51pm

Where is that sweetheart that sent me the wonderful email???? I want to thank you publicly also. You were so encouraging and I hope to get to know you better.

Thanks so much-

Linda

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Sat, 07-09-2005 - 3:12am

Oh, Linda! The thing you said to the nurse!...LOL! It reminds me of something that I feel a bit ashamed of. It has to do with the stuff we do during childbirth and all the fun stuff that goes along with it. I had been in labor for 23 hours and pushing for an eternity, even though I was dialated 99% of the way. I don't know why they kept telling me to push. Anyway, after I was about ready to just die of exhaustion, they decided to do a c-section. The anesthesiologist apologized for having to stick a huge needle into my back, which I found amusing. I did NOT want to feel my body anymore, and I was happy for the huge needle. I kept thinking, "Just get this thing out of me." Isn't that awful? That was my son I was talking about. But that's not the worst.

While my child was being surgically removed from my body, was I excitedly awaiting his arrival while looking lovingly into my husband's eyes? NO. I was laughing with the anesthesiologist about Thanksgiving plans. My poor husband was SCARED, and I pretty much forgot him. He was on my right side, but I just lay there talking to the guy with the drugs. I was so elated at being NUMB that I forgot my baby and my husband.

Of course, when someone said, "I've got the head", I came back to reality. But I still never looked at DH, who was feeling very worried.

I think we can be excused for any of the socially unacceptable things we do during childbirth, though. LOL!

Evelyn :)

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Sat, 07-09-2005 - 4:12am

Linda,

I have waited to respond to your initial plea, probably because this kind of situation is all to common for me. I have been plagued with terrifying dreams since I was a child. I used to wake up sweating, crying, disoriented, as a child, unable to distinguish dream-life from reality. Maybe my rich inner life is part of the reason I became a psychologist. Anyway, from years of dreaming, I have developed a good sense of what is real and what is a dream. I treat my dreams as symbolic, not premonitions of what may happen. In their symbolic form, dreams often help me to figure out what is bothering me or how to deal with a problem in real life. It sounds like that may be where you are headed with your latest dream about your son dying.

When it comes to Cassian, I have dreamed that he is lost, dead, about to die, etc. many times. I also have very interesting dreams about him talking to me very lucidly about his disability, which he really cannot do yet. I worry a lot about Cassian, and that is why he is a topic in my dreams so often. These days, I also have dreams that our soon-to-be-born baby has autism too.

I guess what I wanted to say is that you are not alone in your fears. I would encourage you not to look upon your dream as a premonition, however. Dreams can be great tools for helping you understand your own psyche, and the fear that your son could be endangered the farther he moves outside your family is a very natural one for any parent. The reality here is that he is actually making tremendous progress in becoming independent. I envy you in that knowledge because at age 5, I watch Cassian and it is such an unknown for me whether he will ever live independently, have a job, etc. Anyway, it does sound like you are sorting things out in this area. Hang in there.

Suzi

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Sat, 07-09-2005 - 5:04pm

Thanks for sharing your story also...I am sure many if not all of us has those stories of acting ways we never would while being in labor....your poor hubby though...LOL

Thanks again for sharing-

Linda

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Sat, 07-09-2005 - 5:11pm

Thanks Suzi---I think I have gotten past the inital shock of the dream. I just have never dreamed something that horrible happened. I have been praying really hard in the area of both of my boys and everyone else. It helps me. :-)

I am sorry you have so many bad dreams. I am sure it would be scary with the possibility of your unborn having autism. You hang in there too! :-)

Linda

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