I want to exlode from the inside out

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Registered: 05-16-2006
I want to exlode from the inside out
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Tue, 03-27-2007 - 2:37pm

You know I have alot of wonderful days with my ds. With going to some "sensory" overloading places and he does great, I feel on top of the world.
Sunday we went to MIL's to drop something off and well my ds lost his mind there!! Granted my MIL is of mexican decent and really can't understand english and had NO idea about my son's PDD--she wouldn't understand.

His stimming has gone OFF THE CHARTS. He is echoing to the point I wish he was mute. He is flapping again and holding objects close to his face.
All the typical "autism" stuff we all hate.

Granted yesterday he asked a boy to go down the dual slides to race and the boy told him NO and he wasn't right the rest of the day.
Today my neighbor's grandchild was over. She is the same age as ds, and he ingores both of them. My other neighbor has a waterfall with a paux bridge (thomas the train stim for him). All I watched him do is stim and echo a Thomas episode over and over agian.

I feel so beside myself. I feel alone, angry, depressed and the list of how low I feel goes on and on...

To and the insult to injury, my ds has had this coughing issue. We bought (out of pocket) a nebulizer for his cough and he's on allergy meds and nasal sprays.
The child is ALWAYS ILL.
My dh is always on my case that it's not normal for him to be so ill all the time.
I can't tell anymore if it's cold, allergy and now dh is pushing child ashthma on me!!
I take him to the doctor and they look at me like I am nutz. I feel like a phycho mom who stalks doctors cause my husband rides my back unitl I take him.
God forbid if I don't get a result. The last time I took ds to doc I made dh got to show him that it's him. He still insists that our doc dont' get it.

I can't win. I want to just jump out of my skin today. For the past 3 days I have been dealing with this. I got to the doc at 4 today. Let's hope this is NOT painful.

~~nora

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Wed, 03-28-2007 - 10:30am

Nora,

So sorry you are going through this. I hate that feeling. How are things going with you and DH? I know it was rough a bit ago with the pregnancy thingand he is on your back about the coughing. What are you doing to take care of yourself? You know, at this point for both yourself, son and everyone involved that is very important. You have to take care of you to have the energy to do the rest.

About the coughing. Is it possibly that it is a tic or stim rather than an illness? Mike is big with a cough tic/stim. It will start with a cold and then he will get it stuck in his head that he still has to cough and it will last way past the illness. He also has a bit of a snort thing that sounds like a sniffle but it isn't. Just a thought.

Good luck at the doctor.

Renee

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