I'm tired, Tired, TIRED!

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I'm tired, Tired, TIRED!
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Tue, 08-30-2005 - 8:56am

I'm just tired of not getting the good times w/ Weston, he has his good times at school and I just get the fallout. I'm tired of his behaviors. I'm tired of dealing w/ autism and having to explain his behaviors to everyone. I'm tired of pushing the school to do something more, better for him. I'm tired of everything!

I'm also tired and don't want to deal w/ anymore, but Owen is starting to show lots of the same behaviors as Weston, not to the extent that Weston does, but still... Dh even said the other day, "Owen's acting the same way as Weston more and more of the time." I'm still trying to decide if it's age appropriate for Owen (3 1/2) and if some of it w/ him is imitation of Weston who he looks up to and trys to be like.

I think too, that I'm a very sensory overloaded person. The auditory stimulation of my family is often too much for me. I'm a very visual person. Our house is LOUD (hardwood floors to cut down on allergens & it's open concept in the back and has a 2 story foyer). My youngest 3 children are LOUD (Weston and Owen only have 2 volumes: top of their lungs or so quiet you can't hear them).

I'm just tired!

and now I need to go call the OT and see if she'll ck on some things at school for me, Weston is doing ok as far as they're concerned but he's not eating lunch and he's manic when he gets home from school. Also need to call around and see if I can get an eval for Owen.

Betsy

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Tue, 08-30-2005 - 9:46am

Major Hugs Betsy.

That is tough. I have been in that overload place often and recently. I hope things start to settle in soon. Ya know in theory it is a good thing when they are good in school and we know they need to blow off steam when they get home, but gosh sometimes it would be nice for the school to see what we see and not think we are nuts.

Cait is like that but Mike is an equal opportunity poopy head. I think it definitely works out better that way cause when he is difficult for them he is awesome for me and vice versa naturally.

Hugs on the Owen thing. I think there is a sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach when you first realize a younger child has some symptoms and you are concerned. You are doing the best thing by getting him evaluated now. Even if it is milder than Weston, he will get early help and hopefully do fabulous.

Good luck. Sending along the wine and loads of chocolate.

Renee

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Tue, 08-30-2005 - 10:13am

Big Hugs coming your way Betsy! Although I'm new to the whole school thing, and the thought of my son being an Aspie, I completely understand the getting the bad stuff and others the good stuff, as well as being on sensory overload yourself. Here's a great big cup of Cafe Caramel with extra whipped cream. (always helps me) ;).

Take care, and hugs,
Heather

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Tue, 08-30-2005 - 4:03pm

Betsy, Betsy , Betsy! Can I join you at a spa between here and SC? I know exactly what you are talking about!

I wish I could say things get better but my h$ll didn't really start until the 5th grade. I will give you all the support I can!

"I'm still trying to decide if it's age appropriate for Owen (3 1/2) and if some of it w/ him is imitation of Weston who he looks up to and trys to be like." THIS IS how I feel about Katie-I have NO clue if what she does is age approiate of copying of Jake or what!SHe will go on and on talking and gets very mad if you interupt her. She also has the volume thing either it is top of her lungs or dont even know she is there.

I say we met at a spa and take a mom's day or weekend off--maybe I'll go to Cola and visit my Grandma and we caould do lunch or something!!

Liza

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Wed, 08-31-2005 - 2:06pm

Hi Betsy,


It's like you are reading my mind.

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Wed, 08-31-2005 - 4:30pm

Hi Betsy,

Hugs to you from me too. Where's this spa, can I go too? I'll throw a little cyber champagne in for the spa trip. Is Dom ok? How about a little caviar too? And can I have some of that chocolate and coffee? (Wink!)

My guy is still little, only 3.5, but I hear you. I get tired of the driving to therapy, I think it is an unwritten rule that the therapists that are best for your child must be located on the opposite side of town from you, and that you have to travel in traffic during rush hour to get there!

I get tired of explaining too. My SIL, who is usually very understanding, just does not get why potty training has been an ordeal. I tell her what we have been doing and she says, "that sounds like a lot of trouble." She doesn't understand that for us, EVERYTHING is a lot of trouble! I get so jealous at times, seems like some other moms have it so easy, relatively speaking.

A few weeks ago there was the grandparental "it's only a phase" thread. Yep. BTDT. We have moved on to the, "it's poor parenting, give him to me for a week" phase with the in-laws.

I also get tired of the "momma go away" that I get when my guy is tired. When he stims I still sometimes feel like a failure, even though I know I shouldn't. Will my child ever want to give me an unsolicited hug or ask for comfort when distressed like other children? Will he ever be able to tell me he loves me? It can be so hurtful and hard at times. Even though they don't know how they are making us feel and they can't help it.

Even though it helps to know you are not alone, it is still hard. But we are all here for each other and we do care.

Love,
Katherine

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Wed, 08-31-2005 - 8:53pm

((((HUGS)))) Pam and Katherine!

I just want to say that Weston (9) is much better in public than he used to be and since we've gone to the "how's your engine running" for the sensory stuff we have LOTS fewer meltdowns. AND Weston was the child that never wanted me, never needed me, didn't like hugs or snuggles-- and when he went to 1st grade he changed into the huggy, snuggle boy that I have now. We've had to set up "appropriateness rules" because he'd be all over me at every moment, but he now hugs and loves!

Betsy