It must be in the air(another pity fest)
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| Sat, 05-05-2007 - 8:00pm |
Okay, whatever's going on with us here on the board, it's either contagious or in the air.
I worked last night, so I've only been awake for about 2 hours, and already I want to scream... actually, I already DID scream. And yell, and growl, and... you get the idea.
I won't go into the details, but about 5 minutes after I woke up DH and I were screaming at each other. I got mad and went to punch the wall lightly and ended up punching a wall picture instead by accedent. It didn't break, and neither did my hand. Not wanting things to get any further out of hand I stormed into the bedroom, and was rewarded by horrible wall shaking bang, the sound of glass shattering, and my DH yelling "THAT'S how you break something!" I walked back around the corner, and low and behold he'd put his hand through the picture. Glass everywhere, blood alll over is hand... sigh.
This is one of those days where I feel like saying "I can't take it anymore, I give up". But I know I'll feel different tomorrow. He cleaned up the glass. I cleaned up his hand. Man has the skin of a rino on his hands, only got a few scratches. He's not a violent person at all. This is the first time he's EVER done anything like this since I've met him and he's so unhappy with himself over it I can't imagine he'll do it again. So that's not really a worry.
But GEEZ! Now he's storming around the house in a silent fit and refuses to talk about anything. And i"m too tired emotionally to deal with it. I came to the board hoping to get my mind off it by concentrating on my friends. And I see all these posts I want to reply to, but I can't focus. So, pityfest time. Maybe if I just grumble and complain a bit I'll start to get it out of my system.
Yes, I'm under the close supervision of a dr, no I'm not PMSing, BUT... I'm sure this'll be one more reason for my dr to think I might be starting premature perimenopause. Might as well do the tests and get them over with, eh? lol.
I say the above because I was the original witch in this situation and I know it. I'd appologize to him, but he won't let me.
And someone has to go to the store today, and he was the one who was supposed to go, but he's in no mood and I don't want to push it.
Hippylady and her Original German Problem Solver (cast iron frying pan) moves in next week... I think I'll just have Jade smack me with one early.
~Candes
There's no 'pouting' emoticon... what's up with that?


awww! I'm sorry! Complain and grumble all you like. I hope your day got better, and someone was able to go to the store and use of the frying pan problem solver was not needed. yikes!
Betsy
I, too, have noticed the missing *pouting* icon.
Candes,
I'm sorry to hear about your lousy morning.
(((((Candes))))),
I have the silent brooding husband often here, HATE that. Fortuneately he recently started therapy again and his therapist told him he needs to TALK with me when he is angry so he doesn't eat all the anger and get sick ... HOORAY FOR THE THERAPIST. We'll see if dh is really able to do this regularly, but he tried last week. We had an actual fight, then discussion, not bad. BUT that is not how dh regularly operates and the silent brooding thing can go on day after day, exhausting, make me want to kill him except (as you say) for that bad karma...
Yes, many of us here on the board have been having a big ole case of deep dark blues recently, haven't we? I think we'd better work more on board retreat/party so we all have something fun to look forward to!!!
Hope you are feeling better.
Sara
{{{{Candes}}}}
I am sending hugs. And I picked the "agree" emoticon because we need a "pouting" emoticon. Who's in charge here, anyway?
Sidney
Who's in charge here, anyway?
Some mental
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Candes---((((BIG HUGS))))
It's in the air. My dh has been a royal prick the past few days.
Kid is sick and automatically the whole "autism" world is crashing down around me.
SIGH
It will blow over.
Nora
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Ahhhh Candes, I hope everything has turned around by now and your feeling better.
I typed out a huge post, deleted it, typed another one deleted it again, and now I'm here back again.
Tony and I have some bad nights too lol. He's not an Aspie, but believe me can be major buttheadedness of the world. And so can I at times.
The other night he pissed me off so bad I slammed down a bowl on a table and the glass insert smashed into smitherings.... I was pretty embarrassed as my dd and her dh were over, and I didn't mean to let things get so far gone. But because of stress they did.
I sure hope your feeling better and the storm has passed in your house.
Love ya
Lainie
((HUGS))) Candes,
My dh is the strong silent type too, but when he blows step back. He has put holes in two doors and a wall in the past, usually frustration with DIY jobs (lol). But I know I've pushed him to the brink a few times too. Hope the storm has passed through and you're feeling better,
Dee