Is it time for school yet?
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| Sat, 12-30-2006 - 3:40am |
Victor is truly wearing on my last nerve. I feel like the world's worst parent this last week. Since Christmas, he's been sneaking food into his room, sneaking sodas (he's only allowed to have Sprite and he's been drinking Dr. Peppers and Cokes). Today was over the top. I had a dr. appt today and he asked if he could stay home alone. Okay cool, one less kid to take with me since Dad is in Korea til June. I gave him my cell number, the dr. number and warned him that I could be as long as 2 hours at the appt. Gave him a strict list of what he could do and couldn't do, and called a neighbor to make sure she'd keep an eye out on the house and left him her number as well. (Sounds good so far right? Everything I've done before). Well, the Dr. appt only lasted 30 min so when I showed up early, he started screaming about how I said I'd be gone 2 hours. Of course after this long I've learned to recognize when to not talk to him so I simply warned him that just because he was mad at me did not mean he could yell at me like that and asked him to go calm down in his bedroom. Okay.
After about 3 hours of him calming down and then playing with sister ( he's 10, she's 9) We needed to go get haircuts before I took them to a movie ( we saw flushed away). All through getting hair cut, even during his, he was telling me "I'm bored, can we leave yet, is she done NOW?" Needless to say I should have stuck with my original instinct and not done the movie but I second guessed myself and we went.
We get into the theater and Victor reached over and started playing with my nipple. Well at age 10 he's got no need to do that. I understand that he was overloaded but reaction took place first and I popped him on his leg. Okay, everytime he gets punished in public, he goes into his "I wish I was never born" but it was irking me because all he'd say was "You'll just lecture me again". We've been done this road before and the therapist tells me that it's his way of getting attention because he's got no real plans of hurting himself or anyone else, he just wants to sort of evaporate. When I finally got him to tell me what he was thinking, I gave him a hug, told him I loved him and asked him if he could handle the movie. He said yes but he needed a hug. I put my arm around him through half the movie to calm him down but the entire time was feeling guilty because I couldn't put my other arm around Bryanna because my cup holder was busted so I had my arm half wrapped around her with a cold cup laid up on her shoulder. She got sick of that fast.
Is Victor the only kid in the world who needs an ice cold shower/bath to get clean? I swear if they don't get his OT eval done soon I'm gonna scream. I've been reduced to putting his mattress on the floor because otherwise he hides under his bed to sleep. He wants bunk beds but I think he's just gonna still sleep on the floor. Is it awful for me to want him to go back to school? Even with a chance of him going back to pyscho teacher? I hope that he'll end up with the other teacher but I dunno what the principal will try to keep Victor with the pyscho.
Okay thanks ladies for listening to me gripe. Believe it or not, I really do love my son. I'm just frustrated right now.
sleepless in Texas
Alexis

Alexis,
It's not awful to want him to go back to school. My kids have been home all week, and although I love them dearly,
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Dave does the ice cold shower thing too. Makes me absolutely crazy. He has since a baby screamed at even luke warm water. Sometimes I can sneak it up to tepid but usually he adds cold to it as soon as he can. Mike did prefer cold for a long time. Lately he showers independently but that took a long time to teach. I think he has turned it back to cold though I don't know what goes on in there but the oddest noises come out like he is skating in the tub or something. All I know is that he does get clean so that is good enough for me.
I understand wanting them to go back too. The only difference is school time is usually harder for me with the whole homework issue. It is just crazy so despite dealing with all the aspieness here, it is still better than when in school. And I love my kids dearly too.
I will say the last couple times grandparents have called and even suggested the possibility of seeing the kids at some point, I am flying over there like a bat out a h-e-!! dropping them as quick as possible and hoping I don't have to pick up too quick. Particularly if it is my mom. I even did it with my inlaws a couple weeks ago when I knew Mike was in a mood and they would have a rough time of it. That's bad but I really needed a break and it is ok for them to see them like they are.
Hope you week gets better.
Renee
Isaac also liked to hide under things.