Sara's Pity Party
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| Sat, 03-15-2008 - 12:51pm |
I am so tired of getting school rejections. This is the second year we are applying to special needs private schools that might be appropriate for our special, fabulous boy and after last year, rejection after rejection, now again we are down to only 2 schools left of the ones we applied to this year and I am just SO FECKIN' BLUE AND DOWN AND DIRTY EXHAUSTED!!!! No room, not a match, no room, not a match. Demmit!!!
Yes we are homeschooling. But DH and I are at our limit financially and emotionally. If we are stuck without a good school again for next Fall, we have to make even more changes and I have no idea how we will do that, as right now we simply are copping no breaks at all, no money, almost no down time, DH is working over 60 hours a week so I can do more of the homeschooling, I am working less hours, we can't can't can't keep this up.
And this week, besides getting more rejection letters, all our home services were cut off by the State of New York, so no OT, Speech or play therapy and those were great people doing great work with DS. I thought we could fight them, but they just are cutting off payment to therapists directly and we can't ask people to keep working without pay while we fight. Just for the he!! of it, I am filing for an impartial hearing anyways, why not! At least it will feel like doing something... I could try looking into Medicaid for services, but right this second I am not even capable of tackling another behemoth organizational morass, capesh?
I NEED A VACATION!!! MORE THAN THAT, I NEED TO GET A BREAK FROM THIS UNIVERSE.
I keep saying over and over to myself "He's doing great! It's all worth it! He's doing great!" But as I write this, tears are pouring down my face,
Help, my friends.
Sara

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Sara,
I'm glad your feeling better.
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