Self-Diagnosis Crisis and Language Stuff!!

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Self-Diagnosis Crisis and Language Stuff!!
Wed, 08-29-2012 - 8:21pm

My behaviors now and in the past fit the symptoms of Asperger's, but I actually feel like a fool trying to label myself Asperger's before a professional does.

I feel like this is kind of indicative of Asperger's in itself.

The thing is, I feel like I've taught myself to overcome a lot of the difficulties people with Asperger's face (Aspies sounds derogatory to me). I especially remember being in middle school and not understanding why everyone was telling me I was mean, or why I could only make friends with the teachers, or why I kept wearing the same hoodie every day...

I think they way I thought was so concrete that I couldn't even fully comprehend they symptoms when they were described to me. Mostly because when I read "Do you do _________?" I automatically assume that the question is asking me if I do it on purpose... So I never think to examine the things I have done unconsciously.

Probably the most interesting thing I've noticed is the way I've learned to communicate. I feel like every word or phrase I use is associated with some specific instance - either the way I learned it, or a certain pronunciation, or the way a person said it in a movie...

I guess without an official diagnosis, I just want to touch base with some people who know. Does any of this sound familiar to you guys? I'm going crazy. I would love any thoughts that anyone has, please!!!!

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Registered: 11-13-2008
Thu, 08-30-2012 - 4:02pm

Welcome crr290 :smileyhappy: Some of what you are describing does sound like Aspergers, do you think that you'll get an official diagnosis? It doesn't sound like it's held you back as an adult, but knowing for sure can help you explain some of your behaviors. Even though the diagnosis can be scary, at least you know what you are dealing with (at least that's the way I've approached it as a parent when it came to my son's issues with ADHD).

I look forward to getting to know you better.