This whole grieving thing sucks

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Registered: 04-28-2007
This whole grieving thing sucks
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Tue, 09-18-2007 - 10:53pm

So tonight it all came apart on me!

I literlly lay down on the carpet and SCREAMED and sobbed, poor dh thought I'd dropped a big anvil on myself, lol. But seriously I was done. I sobbed, blubbered, declared God a big fake degenrate and then sobbed somemore. I mean WTF!!! I made the mistake of watching a Youtube thing and all the Aspies had Irish accents and were ALL from Ireland. I was a wreak!!

Why, oh friggin why, my babies??????? sorry sooo selfish right now, but I am soooo angry!!!!! GRIEF BITES!!!!!!!!!

Dee

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Registered: 09-13-2006
Wed, 09-19-2007 - 7:24pm

((((Dee)))))


I wrote a response to your post about Cian, and then, of course, the computer did something weird, and the post disappeared into the land of lost socks and such.

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Wed, 09-19-2007 - 7:50pm

(((Dee)))

I'm sorry it's hitting so hard right now. I go through cycles where I can't believe I'm living this life and it's so hard! Why me?!? what happened to all my hopes and dreams?!?!

Betsy

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Wed, 09-19-2007 - 8:41pm

((((((((Darlin' Dee)))))))

and wow, I do love what everyone wrote, I'm even sitting here crying just a little. Of course of course we all understand. And grieving does suck, HATE it. But spewing that OUT of your body is just so gosh-darned healthy, vs. what most poor fools do, holding it in, letting their guts by poisoned by trying and trying not to grieve. And the grieving is really constant, I find, but sometimes there's no time and sometimes it's so light I can hardly even know it's there and feel so strong and powerful ... and then other times, I'm right there on the floor with yeh, screaming my head off and pounding my fists and frothing and such.

More big (((((HUGS)))))), you beautiful, wonderful mom. I'm sending the Lear jet to come getcha so that Paula and I can take you out on the town in style!!! Don't even bother to pack, cuz we're shopping and getting every part of us done up and hiring a limo...(Anyone else? Lears are super-fast!!! Oh, wait, I can send more than 1!)

And I'm lighting you a candle in my window to send you love and hope across the Eastern Seaboard.

Sara

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Thu, 09-20-2007 - 2:41pm

Well, godness, what a lot of hugs, lol. You guys rock, as always. I had my good bawl, picked myself up and had a smashing cup of real tea from Ireland (well, from India, but bought in Ireland;) I am doing much better today. I even had the strength and nerve to take the kids to the zoo. Of course dh thought I'd medicated Liam and vice versa, it was hysterical watching him go. Think the squirrel in Over the Hedge:) But once the meltdown loomed after lunch we parted ways with my friend and her kids and we went home.

All in all a good experience, of course dh is now crashed out on the bed and I am exhausted, but hey we had a "normal" family day trip....sorta

Dee

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Fri, 09-21-2007 - 5:56pm

Hi Dee,


I just caught your post (Johnny Come Lately that I am!) and just add my empathy to the heap from everyone else.

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