Hello. My name is Tracy and I'm a stay at home mom of 2. Samantha is almost 5 and Matthew is 3. Matthew is my "special" boy. I've always sensed something was different about him. Well, this week, after he had his testing done, we now know he has Asperger's. I think I was in shock with it all, like it didn't hit me. They told me I should enroll him in some structured playtime, like youth gymnastics, so I did and we started today. Today is when it hit me. As I sat there and helped my 3 yr old son do these simple things that ALL the other 2 and 3 yr olds were doing so willingly and easlily, Matthew struggled. Yet, he was having a wonderful time doing it. I saw the difference today, I saw how different he really is. I felt like I had to explain to everyone why he was acting the way he was, liked I owed them an explaination. Instead, I just helped him, and smiled while doing it.
Am I wrong for feeling so sad? I'm scared for him, for me and our family. My husband doesn't deal well with stuff like this, and I'm scared this will make our already rocky marriage even rockier.
I'm glad I found this board. I feel so alone right now, confused and scared.
Thanks for your ear.