Nov/December G2K Jennifer & Jess

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Mon, 11-07-2011 - 11:24pm

Hey, Jess!

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Wed, 11-09-2011 - 12:04am
Yay Jennifer!!! I can't wait to G2K you better and pray for you and Erik and sweet Leslie in the coming months and don't even get me started on the TTC ;)

We will probably not leave the house on Black Friday. Chris has to work, and I am not crazy enough to take 5 kids out that day alone. We also lack the funds to buy anything that day so no point ;)

I LOVE Christmas, so yes I am busting out all kinds of decorations already. I am in the middle of building my Christmas Cross and I love just making the house reflect the Spirit of Jesus this time of the year!

I pray and wish that I get accepted to the Healthy U program that our city is starting. We will interview this month and the 12 chosen folks are named next month and start on January 1st, so I hope that is something that happens before the end of the year. It is like a Biggest Loser for our local area.

Praying for you already lady! I am excited to be matched up with you!!!
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Thu, 11-10-2011 - 9:53pm
How's the Christmas Cross coming along?

Oh, man, I don't envy Chris having to work on Black Friday. What time does he have to go in? I always feel sorry for people who have to go to work at some stupid time like midnight so all the shoppers can get started.

How was your day? Did your tank of gas get you everywhere you needed to go?

Healthy U sounds exciting! I wonder why they only accept 12 people? I will pray that you are one of the chosen. Would it just be you or are you and someone you know hoping to participate?

This talk about Christmas decorations makes me remember that you said you have a blog about keeping your house clean. Would you mind to let me read it? One reason I don't do a lot of decorating is because I literally have no uncluttered surface to put anything on. And we'll have to clear a space on the floor to even put the tree. I get so stressed about the house, but it's so overwhelming that I don't know how to get started.

Please pray for Erik to get a job, and preferably here in Knoxville so we don't have to move. He already got two "no's" as a result of two phone interviews, but they were for jobs that were not here in town, so I'm ok with it. He's going for an in-person interview next week with a company that's about an hour or so away. We would probably move closer for that one, but it wouldn't be so far away that I couldn't visit the fam once a week or so.

What else is going on in Jess's world?
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Fri, 11-11-2011 - 1:41am
Sorry I haven't been around in a day or so, I am so busy right now, that I am hitting facebook only right now. Please feel free to remind me on facebook to get by tushie over hear at any point in the next 2 months ;)

The Christmas Cross is coming along. I need about 8 more things of pre-lit garland so I am praying forth about $80 in Walmart money ;) God will provide or we will have a very naked cross...lol

Chris works 11 am to 8 pm on Black Friday. He should get lunch around 3 pm. So he won't have it to bad, most of the nuts will be gone before he goes to work ;)

I was blessed by my pastor seeing me and slipping me a $100 bill and telling me to go fill up my gas tank. He is such a father figure to me, he often will ask me how much cash I have on me, when I respond none, he says I should always carry cash for an emergency so he gives me what he has in his pocket. He is amazing. I had to go talk to him that morning about someone cornering Bailey in the infant nursery with Madison. A little old lady from our church cornered her and was telling her how wrong we are caring for Madie, she thinks we are blowing her health issues out of proportion and that we need to just get over it :-O Bless her, I know her well, so I wasn't going to try arguing with her, just let Pastor deal with it ;) that way every one lives to see Christmas...lmbo

I have no idea how they came up with 12 people, I do know they have in their minds what those 12 will look like, so I am praying I fit perfectly in one of the slots. It would be amazing to work one on one with a personal trainer in a gym setting for 6 months and work one on one with a nutritionist/dietitian. I just feel like if I don't do something soon, my weight will never change. I have about 200 pounds to lose, and that seems IMPOSSIBLE without help. If we ever had the money I would join a gym in an instant and be there everyday. So I am just praying for God to heal me and help me!

I will be really frank about my blog, I took it down recently. I didn't share with anyone but you, but someone threatened to hotline us, so I closed the site and deleted it. I have come a LONG way in the last 5 years, but I am not perfect and I was terrified of someone using it against me, so I felt I had to take it down to protect my children. I would love to support and encourage you here or by email or by private group on facebook. But for your sake and mine I would want to keep specific information private. I will give you the best advice I have ever received that has helped me more than anything...pick small manageable projects. Your house didn't clutter overnight and you won't declutter overnight. Take one end table or small desk and make it perfect, then the next day do something about the same size, while maintaining what you did yesterday. When you start hitting the organization issues, like where should all this crap go ;) we can talk about that then ;) but just start very small....I will message you some very easy targeted goals for the coming week if you want me to...no pressure :)

I am praying and nagging God to find Erik the perfect job QUICKLY in the perfect place. If that means a little move we are okay with that, but we aren't going cross country this year ;) I am praying daily for you and Erik, not just the job situation, but also reminding God of your marriage.

Please be praying for Chris to feel better, he is still struggling to eat after his surgery. A lot of foods he loves and ate regularly before his surgery now make him nauseous or vomit. He is still losing weight, so we have to figure out something. Also be praying for several doctor's appointments we have coming up. Madison needs to see her neurologist the day before Thanksgiving, Madison is not gaining muscle strength and she is losing her balance and ability to walk. Obviously that isn't good, so we need God to arise and heal her. We also have another GI appointment coming up the week after Thanksgiving. She is also having her swallow test to see if she is swallowing any better. I am very nervous about the swallow test, if it shows she is swallowing better, I know everyone is going to push to slow down her tube feeds, no one can understand why some days she just doesn't like to eat. Until we know that how can we think about stopping or slowing feeds. She is also gaining weight to quickly, so I know everyone is going to get all hyper about that....she just needs God to heal her!!!

Other than that I am laying low and hanging out :)

Hugs girl and I love praying for you!!!
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Mon, 11-14-2011 - 10:12pm
Hey, Jess, I'm going to make this super quick since I'm still feeling feverish and pukey, and hoping to get in bed very soon.

Erik had his interview today and he says he thinks it went pretty well. The start date wouldn't be until January for some reason, so it may be a while before we hear something. But overall it sounds like a good place to work with good benefits, and he thinks he did well in the interview. In the meantime I guess we'll continue the job search.

I am praying for Chris and the issues he's having post-surgery, and for Madie's upcoming appts. I pray you will get some helpful feedback about what's going on with her and that you will see God healing her as only He can. Also praying that you're one of the 12 chosen for the local Biggest Loser thingy! That would be so awesome to have that personal attention. One of the 12. Would that be like one of the 12 Apostles? LOL.

Ok, I can't keep my head upright any longer, so I'm gonna sign off!
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Wed, 11-16-2011 - 11:26pm

Oh man I was hoping you were feeling all better :(

I am praying for the job to be his if that is the one God, if it is not, I am praying God brings the perfect fit sooner and with better everything.

Thank you for your Chris prayers, pray for me as well, I am trying to communicate more with him, and sadly I am not receiving what he has to say very well. We were just talking about me going grocery shopping tomorrow. I normally shop for the month and get it out of the way, but because he thinks he may be having surgery on his gallbladder, I am only allowed to shop for one week, so that he has plenty of grocery money to get what will sound good to him after his surgery. I guess the rest of us will find our feeling of full in watching him eat (insert eye roll here).

I still haven't heard from the selection committee, which is totally freaking me out!!! I want this so bad, I am begging God a LOT for the opportunity. I want to be like Peter and plunge in and make a HUGE difference if we are comparing the 12 to the disciples ;) thank you for you hugs and support sister!!

I am praying you are healed in the name of Jesus, when you wake up in the morning! Love to you and your family!

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Fri, 11-18-2011 - 12:45am

Jess, how's Chris doing since his readmission to the hospital?

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Tue, 11-22-2011 - 5:15pm
Whoo I am finally digging out of the hole of the last few days :) First, don't worry about posting during the day, I normally hit IV at night too ;)

I am praying for the whole job situation.

Chris is doing better, and I do think the dehydration is causing about 75% of the issues with him! You are right on! I talked to the doctor about the pattern and so we helped Chris find some alternatives to water and soda to help him stay good and hydrated! He is feeling better and has been feeling great since becoming gluten free, although the Celiac's test came back negitive so the doctor has opened up his menu again. I am praying he continues to feel great.

thank you so much for your support and prayers! I feel sorry that you get the needy lady...lmbo

Hey speaking of prayer I hope I didn't offend you with my prayer on FB. I know the submission word is icky to a lot of women and I pray I didn't offend you or hurt your feelings :) Hugs and I am praying for you and Erik's marriage, home, and finances to see huge blessings from the Lord. I pray that you see a change that only God can bring about!

Love you girl and I will check in tonight and tell you all about my Thanksgiving plans ;)
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Wed, 11-23-2011 - 10:05pm
The thing is, night's difficult for computer use, too, because of getting supper ready, bath, bed and then chores. Facebook is easy 'cause I just need a few sentences, but iv takes a little more effort.

I am so glad to hear that Chris is feeling better! Does that translate to behaving better with you and around the house?

I'm honored to get the needy lady! And I feel that I'm pretty needy, too, or at least whiney. LOL

You did not offend me at all with your prayer on Fb. I don't find submission icky at all, though many times I find it difficult to actually follow through on. Especially when I'm pretty sure I'm right and he's wrong. But after I wrote that post on Fb, I kind of felt ashamed of myself. I shouldn't have stooped to his level by saying "same to you" when he dropped the f bomb, and he's probably right about me not loving the sinner enough. Anyway, I was kind of sorry that I posted that b/c it probably made me look worse than it made Erik look. Not that I'm going for looks, but you know what I mean. It sounded kind of juvenile. Anyway, I appreciated your prayer in all respects. We both apologized the next morning and things are tolerable again.

How were Madie's appointments today?

We are at the MIL and FIL's until at least Friday. They get on my nerves, but they mean well. That's probably pretty universal with in-laws.

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Sun, 11-27-2011 - 12:09am
I don't think you came off badly in your f/b post! I know what it is like to be in that argument and your heart is aching and you just need a friend to support you! I love you girl and I am so glad that you were able to apologize to each other and that things are at least back to tolerable. I will be praying that God opens your heart to the sinners of the world and that you find a passion for helping those around you!

Madison's appointment sucked! I posted a link to her blog on my wall on f/b, basically they think they have found out her diagnosis to explain all the issues, it is a disease called Mitochondrial Disease, it is a degenerative disease that leads to death, the earlier in life you develop symptoms the faster you will lose your fight with this disease. I know of several kids that have it, and none of them paint a picture of anything like what I want Madison's life to be like. You can read the blog and get more info over there.

I am praying they are wrong, but this is the second doctor to mention this disease, so the chances of them being wrong is slim, and I have suspected this is what we were facing for a few months now. It will be spring before we get any clear info or a clear diagnosis, she will have to undergo surgery for the diagnosis to be official, so that is a few months off. I am numb and in denial this weekend.

I am just aching so much, between my marriage crumbling before my eyes, my husband's head in butt issues ;), and Madison...I am exhausted mentally and emotionally and if I was a younger version of me, I would be spending this weekend moving out and moving on with my life. I keep thinking about starting school and moving on to plan B in life. The only thing stopping me is the thought of him with someone else, I love him Jennifer! I don't want to lose him, but I need him to grow up and step up to the job he signed up for! I need him to engage in his family and invest in us! I need him to figure out what the head of a house does, and do it! I know you are praying for us and I will be praying for you and Erik also!

Hugs friend and I pray you enjoy your time at the ILs this weekend :)

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