My Life As I Know It

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My Life As I Know It
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Mon, 09-14-2009 - 12:04am

Well, I'm in school. I have officially started graduate school. I'm enrolled in a 2-year Master's program to get my MSW (Master's in Social Work. . . Yes, anyone who knows me here knows that my bleeding heart would lead me to some kind of low-paying social service job, LOL!). I have decided to try and become a medical social worker. For nearly 2 years, I've been volunteering on a regular basis helping my husband in the ER (Where he's a staff physician). It has been difficult and challenging, but an incredible learning experience; and since I'm on a Catholic board, I can readily admit to all of you (And you'll undoubtedly not think I'm any weirder than you already do) that I am aware every moment that I'm there that Christ is crucified in His people who suffer. It is my deepest hope that, by the grace of God, I can somehow eventually make some kind of a positive difference in just one life, and do it for Him Who is Love, and then I will have done something positive with myself and given back in just a small way for all the UNDESERVED blessings He has showered upon me for years and years.

So I hope somehow this can be my gift to God. But it won't be easy, because I have 4 young kids (My girls just started first grade, and my oldest turns 11 on Tuesday, and is in 6th grade). My husband's career is demanding and his hours are long and erratic. And I have a fear that my house will fall apart in my absence, or I won't be able to study enough to pass, or I'll neglect my kids in the process. Or the romance and closeness that is so important to us in our marriage will take a backseat and we will become estranged at worst, and routine at best. . . So I have a lot of fears, and it remains to be seen if I can pull this off. And I am not the least bit virtuous, despite the "gift to God" desire, so I'm sure I'll be kicking and screaming the whole way to graduation, and God bless my supportive husband and my poor patient kids, whose lives may be negatively affected by the pursuit of my goal.

Please keep me and my family in your prayers as I take on this huge endeavor. I'm not at all sure I'm dedicated enough, selfless enough, bright enough or committed enough. . . But God's will be done!!




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Mon, 09-14-2009 - 10:03am

Best of luck to you, Sofia, and prayers for your success. It certainly won't be easy, but I know you'll have the support of your husband and family, and of course, your faith!

Kelly

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Mon, 09-14-2009 - 2:11pm
Praying for you... as long as your dh is supportive of the decision I bet things will go well...

Renee


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Mom to: Madeleine, James, Abigail, Theresa & John

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Tue, 09-15-2009 - 2:46am

A wise person relayed a message to me that said

Never doubt your ability, you were made in HIS image!

That being said, Sofia you are bright, capable and strong enough to do this. In addition, your children NEED to see you working hard to achieve YOUR goal, so they have a living example of what it means to earn their way. Learning to compromise (aka sacrifice), work hard, accept and persevere through a challenge, and see a long term commitment through to fruition are very important lessons our children need to learn. If your house falls apart, then it's time the children become part of running it or increase their share of doing so. What better way to learn life skills such as these than when under the safety net of the loving parents' home? Plus they see Mom doing something that is her goal, and not just something that is all about the kids. They need to see you with your own identity and purpose so they understand their own place in the world exists, and they eventually go off in search of it.

You've already been a caring hand, word, and face to those you encountered in your volunteer time. Never underestimate the impact the smallest deed can have. Shortly after returning to our native city and to church, my boys were particularly restless one Sunday. I apologized after church to the man sitting near me and he was less than Christian about his response. If I hadn't grown up in that parish and knew the larger portion of the parishoners were friendly, I would have been put off by this man's words and tone, and possibly never returned with my children to that or any other church.
On the flip side of that, this past Sunday I almost didn't go to Mass because I felt like crud. I pulled myself together enough to go, and was VERY surprised that an anonymous person left me a TON of diapers in the back of the church. To that person they were just getting some things out of their closet and helping me in some small way. But to me, it was HUGE. That 1/2 pack of newborn diapers, and new packs of size 2s & 3s equate to my being able to focus on caring for my family and meeting other day to day needs, and not worrying about what's going to cover the baby's butt or how I was going to get it done.
And it's not all the tangible gifts I've been given during this pregnancy, but it's mostly all about the fact that I am loved and these members of my church family are willing to share that without expecting anything from me. It's the same principle with your desire to follow this call into social work. It's the road to LIVING this past Sunday's readings.

Now, when things get hairy - and they will because the devil likes to throw sand under the guise of many things....keep in mind this verse - 2 Corinthians 12:9. It's my favorite verse and has helped guide me through some difficult or even annoying waters on more than one occasion.

~Trish

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields
and until we meet again,
may God hold you in the palm of His hand.
--old Irish blessing

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~Trish

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your
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Wed, 09-16-2009 - 6:55am

What everybody else said,Sofia.

 


 


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Thu, 09-24-2009 - 3:08pm
Lots of prayers for you and your family, Sofia. Your post was just beautiful. You are most certainly dedicated, selfless, bright, and committed enough to pull this off. I think you are going to surprise yourself.