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|Thu, 08-26-2010 - 8:16pm|
but I am not sure where to put this one.
Is it a mortal sin to have a hysterectomy when it is not necessarily LIFE-SAVING but is definitely a QUALITY OF LIFE issue?
Let me explain:
I have had severe endometriosis since I was 15 (possibly since I was 9). Despite the odds (and with the help of fertility drugs the first time around) my husband and I have managed to birth 2 wonderful children and are expecting the third this October.
Between pregnancies I have had 2 endometrial ablations (surgery to laser off the scar tissues, bleeding ulcer-like growths, and free up my other internal organs). I have been off and on narcotic pain relief since 2002. I have had a spinal stimulator placed to get me off the narcotic roller coaster in order to get pain relief. Nothing works, short of being pregnant, and even then, because of the intensity of the scarring, it is difficult to keep a pregnancy, not to mention the pains from a growing uterus that literally can't grow well without crippling pain because of the scars that then have to grow and stretch.
Before I had found out baby #3 was coming I was ready for the hysterectomy. My 2 children suffer for the pain that I am in. I cannot have them on my lap. I have a hard time playing with them. I have an incredibly hard time some days even breathing. They need a mommy who is not always on narcotics. They need a mommy who can BE A MOMMY.
I know that suffering is it's own form of penance...but is it wrong to take advantage of a method that could take the pain away? The stimulator cannot cover the pain anymore and I have had it adjusted so many times that the company is out of answers and has said I may be one of the few people who do not benefit from it.
I'm just looking for the thoughts of those who may know better than I. Thank you if you've gotten this far.