Kate, I am so sorry

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Kate, I am so sorry
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Fri, 10-02-2009 - 5:34pm
((((HUGS))))

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jhscalis@wisc.edu

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Fri, 10-02-2009 - 6:10pm
Thanks Sheryl. It's been a hard day but we'll get through it. I just never thought our TTC journey would be this long or this difficult.

~Kate

TTC May, 2007Initial Diagnosis: MFI4 IUI's w/ Clomid- all BFNIVF #1 June- Lupron protocol. 9 eggs, 6 mature, 4 fertilized, 3 day transfer, 1 x 7 cell grade A= BFNDiagnosis: bad eggsIVF #2 September- Antagon protocol. 6 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized, 3 day transfer, 2 x 8 cell perfect embies, 1 x 5 cell slow-poke.Result: POSITIVE beta on 10/6- 43.7Beta #2 on 10/8: 139, Beta # 3 on 10/10: 382u/s #1 on 10/17: 1 sac measuring 5w3dM/C on 10/24Next up: seeking 2nd opinion of doc who specializes in diagnosis and m/c. Diagnosis: Low ovarian reserve and problem w/ Sperm DNA (DFI)DH on high doses of Antioxidants to help w/ DFI. Results went from 30.7% down to 17.2%! YIPPEEE!!IVF #3 February, 2009- Retrieval 2/22/09-5 eggs2/23/09- Fert report. Only 1 mature egg out of the 5. It did fertilize normally2/25/09- ET- Transfered one perfect 8 cell embie. STICK BABY STICK!!3/7/09- AF Arrived. BFNMay, 2009- IVF #45/14/09- Retrieval of 16 eggs, 9 mature, 7 fertilized5/17/09- Transfer of 4 embies- one 8 cell grade A, one 7 cell grade A, two 6 cell grade B5/29/09- BFP! HCG: 121. 6/1/09 HCG: 407. 6/3/09: HCG 984. 6/5/09: HCG 20536/8/09- early u/s showing gestational sac- no yolk. HCG only rose to 3,698. Not a good sign6/10/09- more u/s and bw6/16/09- no yolk sac- m/c D&CNEXT UP: DE w/ my sister as the donor. Lupron to begin on 8/25/09. Stims started on 9/7/09

~Kate


6-time IVF Survivor


2 m/c's


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Fri, 10-02-2009 - 7:25pm

I'm so sorry this one didn't work out for you. You already have a plan though and that's half the battle. Like yourself, I never thought my IF journey would be so long and torturous......be good to yourself and DH at this time and don't blame yourself. Move forward when you are ready and never give up if this is what you really want. It took me 13 tries with lots of stupid advice from people thinking I should adopt or remain childless. Keep your eyes on your goal! You'll get there.


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Sat, 10-03-2009 - 4:11pm
Thanks Sarah. I was actually going to ask you, since I knew you had a long road to happiness, too...do you mind sharing your 'story' w/ me? Like how many tries did you do w/ your own eggs, how many donors did you have to use, etc? only if you don't mind, if you do, then please don't worry about it. thanks!!

~Kate

TTC May, 2007Initial Diagnosis: MFI4 IUI's w/ Clomid- all BFNIVF #1 June- Lupron protocol. 9 eggs, 6 mature, 4 fertilized, 3 day transfer, 1 x 7 cell grade A= BFNDiagnosis: bad eggsIVF #2 September- Antagon protocol. 6 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized, 3 day transfer, 2 x 8 cell perfect embies, 1 x 5 cell slow-poke.Result: POSITIVE beta on 10/6- 43.7Beta #2 on 10/8: 139, Beta # 3 on 10/10: 382u/s #1 on 10/17: 1 sac measuring 5w3dM/C on 10/24Next up: seeking 2nd opinion of doc who specializes in diagnosis and m/c. Diagnosis: Low ovarian reserve and problem w/ Sperm DNA (DFI)DH on high doses of Antioxidants to help w/ DFI. Results went from 30.7% down to 17.2%! YIPPEEE!!IVF #3 February, 2009- Retrieval 2/22/09-5 eggs2/23/09- Fert report. Only 1 mature egg out of the 5. It did fertilize normally2/25/09- ET- Transfered one perfect 8 cell embie. STICK BABY STICK!!3/7/09- AF Arrived. BFNMay, 2009- IVF #45/14/09- Retrieval of 16 eggs, 9 mature, 7 fertilized5/17/09- Transfer of 4 embies- one 8 cell grade A, one 7 cell grade A, two 6 cell grade B5/29/09- BFP! HCG: 121. 6/1/09 HCG: 407. 6/3/09: HCG 984. 6/5/09: HCG 20536/8/09- early u/s showing gestational sac- no yolk. HCG only rose to 3,698. Not a good sign6/10/09- more u/s and bw6/16/09- no yolk sac- m/c D&CNEXT UP: DE w/ my sister as the donor. Lupron to begin on 8/25/09. Stims started on 9/7/09

~Kate


6-time IVF Survivor


2 m/c's


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Sat, 10-03-2009 - 10:02pm

I know the feeling.

jhscalis@wisc.edu

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Sun, 10-04-2009 - 7:44pm

Kate:


I'm so sorry, I wish I had the words to tell you how much so. Thinking of you.


Gabrielle


Franklin and Callan

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Mon, 10-05-2009 - 10:44am

Kate,