Pregnancy Test This Week/File on Donor
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|Sun, 08-30-2009 - 9:25pm|
Oh my. One week down and a few more days to go. My pregnancy blood test is Friday. Our transfer was last Saturday. I'm impatient and even though I knew it would be negative, I have taken two pregnancy tests. I know, crazy right? I had a bunch left over from when we were TTC on our own.
I'm having some breast tenderness, which is a good sign for me because in my one pregnancy we had the old-fashioned way (which ended in miscarriage) that was my first symptom. No others yet. I cramp all the time from endometriosis so I would never know if the cramping was different.
I'm excited and nervous. We used a fresh donor egg, actually two, and we still have four fertilized that are frozen. It's all coming down to the wire now.
On another note, I made a file about my donor. Her pictures, profile of her likes, medical history, quotes about life, favorite movies, etc. I also have her psych report -- I know some clinics don't do that, but I worked with a great donor agency and they were okay with it as long as my clinic was. I'm just trying to distance myself from thinking about her. I want to be thankful for her contribution but not preoccupied by it.
I made a comment the other day that disturbed me. I'm in HR and the donor is going to medical school. I said something like "I wonder if the baby/babies will be into liberal arts like me or go to med school like the Mom." I had never thought anything like that or said anything like that. I know in my heart I will be the Mom so it shocked me that I said that. I am confident that once a baby is growing inside me, I feel him/her kick, give birth, see the first smile and on and on that I will feel 100% like the Mom. It just bother me I said that. Maybe I just don't know what to call her -- other than donor, which sounds so clinical.
Any way, wish me luck. I'm sure I'll take another home test before Friday! I can't help myself.
Thanks for all the support and good luck to anyone about the do the process and waiting for results. Well, good luck to all of us who want a little one... or two... or three.