Ok I am starting to go crazy - help!

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Ok I am starting to go crazy - help!
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Tue, 04-19-2011 - 8:49pm

Ok guys I am reaching freak out point. This two week wait is worse then the original 2ww. Other then the sensative nipples (which I feel might be slightly less sensative but who knows) no changes. Nothing. I am delving straight into the TMI so I am sorry in advance.

My nipples are no darker (I have looked at them far more then a straight woman should). And worse, I am having the opposite issue of constipation. Actually this is embaressing to say (which is odd Im a nurse and so do not often get embaressed) but I actually had an episode of diarrhea. I got a cramp and before I could make it to the bathroom......well lets just say I had to do a quick load of laundry. Again I am SOOO sorry if this is TMI but all of this seems SO opposite the signs of pregnancy that I already feel like I have lost hope. Hope and sanity. And a stitch of dignity considering I am 25 and might have to consider wearing a diaper. I hate to think what would have happened if I was not home.....

I just feel this sense of impending doom. Like I am going to go to this appointment and it will be ectopic. Or it will have stopped growing and we will hear the silence of failure instead of a heartbeat like we want. I am trying to stay positive but I feel like I should be feeling something other then this awful embaressment and depression. I just start crying randomly and I feel like I cannot talk to anyone because no one but my DH knows about our possible good news.

So thanks in advance for listening to my rambling. I am so sorry if I grossed you guys out to much I am just at a loss.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Registered: 06-15-2010
Tue, 04-26-2011 - 10:52am

Dixie - Sorry that I'm just getting to this now...life's been busy!

Robin

Mom to 2-year old twin boys, Dawson & Devin

TTC #3

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Wed, 04-27-2011 - 3:45pm
I hope your appointment is going/went well!
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Registered: 06-15-2010
Wed, 04-27-2011 - 7:33pm

Ok Dixie...how did it go???

Robin

Mom to 2-year old twin boys, Dawson & Devin

TTC #3

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