Thought we were done. . .

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Thought we were done. . .
Sun, 08-22-2010 - 9:24pm

Not too long ago I posted that Brian and I were done for now.  We had three failed IUI's with Clomid and Follistim.  It was looking like we would need IVF and we weren't goign to pursue that until next summer.

Now it might not be necessary!  I got a BFP yesterday - eight in fact :)  I am really freaking out about this.  I just can't belive this may be it.   I will call the doctor tomorrow to get a blood test to confirm.  Hopefully I will know for sure on Tuesday.  THis is making me crazy!!! 

I'm so excited by the idea, but at the same time I'm terrified!  What if this is a false positive?  I don't know if I can handle that.  I'm also terrified of a loss.  With Max I was already a little over six weeks when we figured out I was pg.  Within 24 hours of my pos hpt, I was hearing his hearbeat through an ultrasound.  I'm just so scared.

I'm also worried about people and htier insensitive comments when they find out.  I can only imagine how many times I will hear someone say that they knew all I needed was to relax, or see there wasn't a problem after all, you just needed to give it time. . . and on and on and on.  All of these comments make me feel like my IF journey was all in my head and I just needed to relax - which deep down I know isn't true, but I just hate to hear it!

If you made it this far, thanks for listening.  Stick baby bean, stick!



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Mon, 08-23-2010 - 7:36am


2/09 Ooops BFP --> M/C @ 12 wks

6/09 TTC #1 BFP --> M/C @ 7wks

9/09 clomid 50mg, HCG trigger -->BFP --> chem preg


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Mon, 08-23-2010 - 8:42am


I hope this is the real deal and 8 tests sure sounds like it is.

Sending many SBV's to you:)


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Mon, 08-23-2010 - 9:11am
Congratulations Sarah!


TTC since 6/2007. 
IVF #1 Jan 2009 - BFN
IVF# 2  April 2009 - BFN
IVF# 3 July

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Mon, 08-23-2010 - 10:13am


Finally pregnant after 3 yrs of ttc and 3 losses. Lilypie Pregnancy tickers EDD: 9/18/11
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Mon, 08-23-2010 - 10:23am

Congratulations Sarah! LOL at 8 bfp's, I would've done the same thing! Certainly doesn't sound like a false positive to me, but I totally understand the fear you feel. It is hard when it is something we want so bad. Can't wait to hear your betas, I've got everything crossed for you.

And as far as people's comments, this bfp was kind of a surprise for us following a failed ivf cycle/converted iui/miscarriage cycle so I know how you feel. My advice, don't even tell anyone how it happened because I did get those, "see you just had to relax comments" and it really pissed me off. I was anything but relaxed with this bfp as we were trying to figure out how to pay for a donor egg cycle so stress was high, but I still got the comments. I wish I hadn't mentioned that it happened naturally to anyone IRL. Especially DH telling his sister, grrr!



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Mon, 08-23-2010 - 11:14am

OMG!!! Sarah I just got chills!!! I can't believe this!! WOOOO HOOOOO!!!! I've been thinking about you since you haven't been on the boards for awhile (I know you are back at school). I am sooooo happy for you! What an amazing surprise for you!!! Can't wait to hear your BETA numbers. It just seems impossible to get 8 false positives. I think you did it!! Yippeee!

Try to relax and just enjoy the BFP. I know I questioned mine so many times that I didn't enjoy it at first the way I should have. It's hard, I know. And no matter what stupid things people say, it doesn't matter at all - cause you are pregnant! Miracles happen every day - and it looks like you just got on the receiving side of one! :-) So happy for you & DH (and Max!)

KUP on everything. What a happy post to read this morning!!


Me (34) DH (32) TTC #1 since 2007

TTC naturally/ timed BD 2007-2009 July 2009 SA #1 zero count

July 2009-March 2010 more tests for DH

June 9 & 10, 2010- First & Second IUIs with Donor Sperm (Clomid, Estrogen, HCG) BFP!!!

June 26th, 2010 - Beta #1 : 531

July 12th, 2010 - U/S : HB 127

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Leslie Finally welcomed baby Stella on 2/25/2011 after 3+ years of TTC!
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Mon, 08-23-2010 - 12:43pm

What a great surprise!!

I hope you get great confirmation from today's blood test!

Take things one day at a time and enjoy the ride.



Me: 37, DH: 41

TTC for 5 years . 1 Ectopic PG at 8 weeks;

Me: 39, DH: 43

TTC for 5 years . 1 Ectopic PG at 8 wee

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Registered: 02-11-2008
Mon, 08-23-2010 - 12:53pm
Congratulations Sarah.

Mom to Sebastian Robert after 3+ years of infertility

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Registered: 07-21-2010
Mon, 08-23-2010 - 7:58pm
Oh Sarah that is SO EXCITING!! Lots of baby dust to you!!! I am sure 8BFP must mean a truly wonderful LO. You give me great hope.


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

M/C November 2009

Metformin December 2009

Clomid #1 50mg April 2010 = no O :-(

Clomid #2 100mg May 2010 = BFN

Clomid #3 150mg July 2010 = BFN





"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

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Tue, 08-24-2010 - 9:43am