Thought we were done. . .
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|Sun, 08-22-2010 - 9:24pm|
Not too long ago I posted that Brian and I were done for now. We had three failed IUI's with Clomid and Follistim. It was looking like we would need IVF and we weren't goign to pursue that until next summer.
Now it might not be necessary! I got a BFP yesterday - eight in fact :) I am really freaking out about this. I just can't belive this may be it. I will call the doctor tomorrow to get a blood test to confirm. Hopefully I will know for sure on Tuesday. THis is making me crazy!!!
I'm so excited by the idea, but at the same time I'm terrified! What if this is a false positive? I don't know if I can handle that. I'm also terrified of a loss. With Max I was already a little over six weeks when we figured out I was pg. Within 24 hours of my pos hpt, I was hearing his hearbeat through an ultrasound. I'm just so scared.
I'm also worried about people and htier insensitive comments when they find out. I can only imagine how many times I will hear someone say that they knew all I needed was to relax, or see there wasn't a problem after all, you just needed to give it time. . . and on and on and on. All of these comments make me feel like my IF journey was all in my head and I just needed to relax - which deep down I know isn't true, but I just hate to hear it!
If you made it this far, thanks for listening. Stick baby bean, stick!