2 baby showers

Yes I went to both of them. I must be a masochist!

First of all I had a total break down on friday. I can home from work in tears because Im 99.9% sure I am not PG. I started to feel my right ovary on thursday, and on friday I felt it again AND felt my left. I can feel my follies grow. How can I feel that and be PG? Not possible. DH made me feel better and took me out.

Shower #1. I felt too guilty not to go, it was for a friend. So I went late and sat with my girlfriends. Lucky for me they are a great distraction. They talk though the gifts and everything. I got though it no problem. I was surprised. But then some people started to ask me for updates and they want to know how this are going for me fertility wise. Well I cant talk about that at a shower. Come on! So I kept brushing off the question and leaving the scene sorta speak.

Shower #2. This was for my SIL. I went yesterday (excuse for being late to the other shower) and decorated the house, wrapped a gigantic gift basket and got things ready. This was the hard one. So first I almost but my back out placing this supper heavy gift behind her special shower chair. So my back is killing me and I cant take anything strong because I POAS on wendsay. So just incase I am still being careful. Oh and About an hour after that I get a migraine. Just lovely! I sat on the floor next to her and helped with the gifts. I was doing ok. Then after I started to feel it, stress. I didnt want to talk to anyone, no distraction. No one there was a friend it was all family. Im just glad no one asked me if I was going to get PG soon. I would have lost it. There was my SIL and her 2 PG cousins. Just lovely, belly rubs. Got to love that. So later the guests are gone and her husband shows up. Now its time for party #2 of the day? What? They want to know what time DH is coming over to eat. (I married an Italian, its all about the food) I tell FIL and MIL that he isnt coming, hes not feeling well. I got the third degree from their eyes! They were pressuring me to bring him. WTF! Cant I just finally go already! I think 4 hours of hell is enough! So IU make a break for it and leave.

I walk in the door at home with tears in my eyes and DH asks "whats wrong?" DUHHHH idiot! So I start yelling at him about my crappy day and stomp away. When I walk back though the room he tells me HES upset over the shower and his parents and I need to give him a few minutes to cool down. EXCUSE ME! I just went though hell but he needs a few minutes!!! UGGGHHHH!!!!

Cynthia

  

 

 

DH 34 and me 36 We’ve been together 16 years married Sep 2004. TTC our first since Dec 2004.
Conceived using Provera and Clomid - MC April 03 2006
Conceived naturally - MC July 07 2008
Found out I have PCOS, MTHFR and Factor V Lieden so I will be a high risk pregnancy and have to inject myself every day with Fragmin.
God please just give me 1 healthy baby please!