Another friend is pregnant!
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|Mon, 12-29-2008 - 6:36pm|
I don't know what I would do with out a support group like this in times like I had today. I "reunited" with a friend of mine who used to be very close and then we drifted apart. She was in town and we got together after about 10-12 years apart...only to hear she is 3 months pregnant.....and it happened on their first month trying! UGGGGHHHH!!!! Just in the past three months, 3 of my friends (the only 3 left without children) have all announced their expecting. And, of course, I am thrilled for them.....I truely am....but then I find myself crying when I am alone. The worst part is after they have all told me they were pregnant, and I congratulate them, they ask that dreaded question... you know the one.... "What about you? When you are going to be ready?" I scream inside and all I can let out is, "We're trying. For some people, it doesn't happen as fast as it did for you." Then I get the-head tilt to the side- "Ahhh, you will totally get pregnant soon...I just know you will!" reply. It's like pouring salt on an open wound.
Here I am---temping every morning, getting pricked by needles, discussing my DH's S/A, preparing for an HSG this week, adding words like Provera and Clomid to my vocabulary and my friends wink at me and say I'll get pregnant....if they only knew!
I feel like there is something wrong with me and there is no one (in person) I can turn to that truly understands what I am going through. That is why this board is priceless.... you guys get it....when you say, "I know what you are going through." It's not just lip service. And, even though I feel so alone in my own little world, I come on here and feel comforted. Thank you for that and thank you for letting me vent.