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|Fri, 09-26-2008 - 11:44am|
ok so some of you know that last night in class the women in class and I were talking about something. I had brought up something about my MC, and the one lady asked if DH and I had tried to get preggers since then, I said yes but I'm having some IF issues. so the instructor and the one girl start laughing. (the woman that asked in the first place didn't, she had secondary IF and didn't find anything funny about it) The one girl said that she wished she had to try, she had 2 unexpected pregnancies. I found that especially offensive b/c her son has lung cancer, I thought how dare she even say that, when her son could take a turn for the worst at any minute, THAT'S TERRIBLE. My instructor said that it was funny b/c I didn't look like the type that would even want kids. (WHATEVER THAT MEANS!!!!!) I'm guessing she means the tattoos, but I guess people with lots of tattoos can only party all the time and do drugs and whatever she expects us to do. WHATEVER! So now I'm debating on whether or not to return. Anywho, AF showed, 2 days early and I'm pissy and I'm upset and I just wanna quit. This isn't supposed to be happening to me. I kinda knew it wasn't gonna be this month, but I was still retaining hope. I'm seriously starting to wonder if it's just not in the cards for me. All my life, that is the only thing that remained constant, no matter what I wanted to do it was always in conjunction with being a mommy. That was the plan. I'm sorry I'm done, I can't write anymore.