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Registered: 10-28-2009
Fri, 04-09-2010 - 1:48pm

I'm feeling so defeated after my ectopic pregnancy last week. I feel like I want to throw in the towel and give up. I'm so tired of this horrible rollercoaster of emotions EVERY MONTH.

I'm sure I will feel better next week or next month, but I just hate it right now. I'm sure we all feel like this at times...I'm just ready for it to end.


Me 33, DH 36. TTC since November 2007. Possible miscarriage in January of 2008 (too early for BFP, but all symptoms point to miscarriage). Normal SA in Feb 2009. HSG showed large (50% of uterus) fundal fibroid in Feb 2009. Hysteroscopically removed in March 2009. Tried to concieve naturally until August. Repeat HSG was normal. 6 cycles of Clomid alone...never had a BFP. IUI #1 = 01/13/10, BFN. IUI #2 = 3/11/10, BFP 03/26/10, beta 1 = 57.5, beta 2 (4 days after 1) = 661. Ectopin in right tube. Lap to remove 4/3/10.


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Registered: 10-31-2008
In reply to: jamieokc
Fri, 04-09-2010 - 1:54pm
(((BIG HUGS))) Jamie.


TTC since 6/2007. 
IVF #1 Jan 2009 - BFN
IVF# 2  April 2009 - BFN
IVF# 3 July

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Registered: 07-30-2009
In reply to: jamieokc
Fri, 04-09-2010 - 2:05pm

Many hugs Jamie!

I have definitely had the defeated feeling many times so I know where you are coming from. It is a crappy place to be. But give yourself some time, you've just been through a horrible loss.

I wish I could make all the pain go away for you!



I'm 38, DH is 42 and we are TTC #1. We've had 3 unexplained miscarriages and a bout with Asherman's Syndrome but we're determined.

BFP #4! - 1/
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Registered: 01-13-2010
In reply to: jamieokc
Fri, 04-09-2010 - 3:24pm


I am sorry about your loss. I have felt the same way. Just know that we are here for you.


TTC since August 2008. Unknown infertility

IUI w/ Clomid #1 September 2009 , BFP with twins in October, miscarriage at 8 weeks 1 day and 8 weeks 3 days

IUI w/ Clomid #2 February 2010, no luck there.

IUI w/ Clomid #3 March 2010, BFN

IUI w/ Clomid #4 April 2010

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Registered: 06-26-2007
In reply to: jamieokc
Fri, 04-09-2010 - 4:44pm


I am so sorry for your loss. When you are in the eye of the storm it does feel like you just don't want to go on. It is unfair that we have to go through these things and it sucks. It really sucks! And it is OK to have those feelings and to feel mad and grieve for your loss. I have found it helps me to just think about getting through this and focus on today. Once you feel a little stronger you can once again think about TTC and what comes next.


Kathleen - TTC #1 since September 2006 (Me - 31, DH - 32). Always remembering our 3 angels.

January 2008 - Chemical P/G, April 2008 - M/C at about 7 weeks, June 2008 - Blighted Ovum

May 2009 - diagnosed Low Protein S and Hetero MTHFR - Baby aspirin, Lovenex

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Registered: 01-03-2010
In reply to: jamieokc
Fri, 04-09-2010 - 7:03pm

Jamie - I'm sorry that you are feeling so defeated right now.

~ Meron born 12-09-11 after 3 1/2 years of TTC, IUIs and IVF.
~ #2 on the way(!) and due 06-06-13.

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Registered: 08-20-2009
In reply to: jamieokc
Fri, 04-09-2010 - 10:38pm

Lilypie Maternity tickers

May Baby

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Registered: 03-07-2009
In reply to: jamieokc
Sat, 04-10-2010 - 12:21am
Jamie, I wish I could give you a hug IRL and help you with your healing process. I know it's hard to keep starting over. Just know that you have our support. Take care.



DH and I are 33yrs old. TTC #1 since May08| July09- Dx POF|  Aug09- started Premarin, Metformin, and Lupron

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Registered: 11-07-2008
In reply to: jamieokc
Sat, 04-10-2010 - 8:36pm

Big ((Hugs)), Jamie.


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Registered: 03-27-2010
In reply to: jamieokc
Sun, 04-11-2010 - 11:40pm
Try to hang in there Jamie.