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Sun, 08-29-2010 - 7:17pm

I just got terrible news. Posted right there on facebook. A college classmate and my DH's stupid sister are BOTH pregnant. BTW she is at least 2x bigger then me. I am the lowest I have ever been.


I am reaching the sad thought that perhaps this will just not happen for me. Both of these people wanted to get pregnant and guess what, they are. I have wanted to get pregnant for over a year and have taken more meds and had more awkward and sad conversations then any person should have..........


I just wanted to cry. And probably will.....I just do not understand. I am sad because of the classmate. I am angry because of his sister. They have no money, live on food stamps, is not married to a terrible man, and they have almost no income.  Why? Why do THEY get to get pregnant and not me........I am starting to tear up even now......I just do not understand.

Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


M/C November 2009


Metformin December 2009


Clomid #1 50mg April 2010 = no O :-(


Clomid #2 100mg May 2010 = BFN


Clomid #3 150mg July 2010 = BFN


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Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


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Sun, 08-29-2010 - 9:42pm

Oh Dixie,


I'm so sorry you are down (big hugs) I know its hard to hear the news of someone you know getting pregnant. - I think its hardest to hear when the people closest to you, (family and/or friends) get pregnant.

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Sun, 08-29-2010 - 9:46pm

Thanks hun, I appreciate the support and kind words. I think it might have hurt less if I respected my SIL. She is not a nice or wise person. I am not

Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


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Sun, 08-29-2010 - 10:18pm


Oh Dixie, I am so sorry. That is a horribly tough situation. My cousin is expecting his third child, the first with his new girlfriend who has 2 children with two other men. They don't work, live on food stamps and government assistance, and "accidentally" got pg. I felt shaken to my core- I feel like if they are suitable enough to get the blessing of a 5th child between them, I should be considered by the universe/karma/God/a greater being to be suitable to be the mother of one! I wish I could say something other than I'm sorry and I feel your pain, because I know that doesn't change the hurt.

Megan, your sermon story was so timely for you, for Dixie, and for me and I am so glad you shared it! I've been in such a TTC slump, and was getting to the point where I didn't believe, but this evening, while walking my dogs with DP and enjoying a beautiful late summer evening, I felt renewed faith. Your story helped me see how important it is to keep hopeful. Dixie, I hope you can get past this TTC low and find yourself in a more hopeful place soon. I think the roller coaster is the worst part of all this and I just hate that you are at the bad part of it right now.

Andrea

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Sun, 08-29-2010 - 11:08pm
Thank you guys so much. I feel like I am in a slump I can't get out of. I keep feeling like I am running down a long hallway towards a door but instead of getting closer the hallway keeps stretching and I'm getting no closer. I think some of it is the fact I am still in limbo. I'm still not Oing so I'm not even getting a chance. This waiting is pushing me further into my slump. Hopefully I can pull myself up so I can get on a high point again.

Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


M/C November 2009


Metformin December 2009


Clomid #1 50mg April 2010 = no O :-(


Clomid #2 100mg May 2010 = BFN


Clomid #3 150mg July 2010 = BFN


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Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


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Registered: 11-02-2009
Sun, 08-29-2010 - 11:30pm

Dixie I'm so sorry.

Tamar

TTC #1 since Feb '09 with Unexplained Infertility: SA's all ok; b/w and HSG ok; Lap Mar '10 - mild endo on outside of right tube/uterus removed but not considered eno

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Mon, 08-30-2010 - 3:30pm
I"m so sorry Dixie:( It just seems so unfair. I have tried so hard to remain positive but I to often doubt it will ever happen:(
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Mon, 08-30-2010 - 4:18pm

Hey Dixie,


Me - (Amanda 27) My dh-- 26 We have been ttc # 1 for 3yrs 5mths My dh has severe oligospermia, Ivf with icsi is our only option. Ivf # 1--- failed Ivf # 2--- failed Ivf # 3-- hopefully in March 2013 at a new clinic!

 

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Mon, 08-30-2010 - 7:19pm

Thank you ladies. I am 1,000% sure I would not be able to get through this without you. I just feel like I have been on this slump forever. Since I got the devistating news from the RE I feel like it has just been hit after hit. I try to bring myself up then something else smacks me in the face.


I have decided to take it moment by moment. What other options are there?

Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


M/C November 2009


Metformin December 2009


Clomid #1 50mg April 2010 = no O :-(


Clomid #2 100mg May 2010 = BFN


Clomid #3 150mg July 2010 = BFN


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Dixie


"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella


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Mon, 08-30-2010 - 9:09pm
I'm so sorry Dixie.

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Tue, 08-31-2010 - 1:44pm

I am so sorry you have to go through this. IF is no fun. It always seem that when we are TTC for such a lon time everyone we know gets pregnant and was not trying that hard or long.


Hang in there. I know that there is nothing that anyone can say to make you feel better, just know everyone on this board is here for you.

Carrie


TTC since August 2008. Unknown infertility


IUI w/ Clomid #1 September 2009 , BFP with twins in October, miscarriage at 8 weeks 1 day and 8 weeks 3 days


IUI w/ Clomid #2 February 2010, no luck there.


IUI w/ Clomid #3 March 2010, BFN


IUI w/ Clomid #4 April 2010,BFP chemical pregnancy.


IUI w/ Injectables #1 May 2010, BFP with twins and very good beat numbers. Heart beats in the 160's


Due date 1/28/2011.


We're having a baby boy and baby girl.

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