Don't know how to be hopeful
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|Sat, 11-01-2008 - 7:33pm|
Hey ladies. So I have decided that I am giong to go ahead and do another round of clomid on a higher dose. I Have gotten it through an onlilne pharmacy since it is a little cheaper that way but im not sure when it will come so i have to wait to take my provera. I was really hoping to have a baby belly for christmas but at this point it doesnt look like that is going to happen. After three years of not being able to get pregnant and dozens upon dozens of BFN's I don't know how to keep hope anymore. I try to be hopeful through it all andh ope that I am pregnant but then I see just that one line and its a huge disappointment. I dont know if its easier to just tell myself that it isnt going to happen and come to terms with that and if it does then i have my miracle but I really dont know how much longer i can put myself through this! All the tests and hormones and disappointment while every single person around me has their own family. I just dont know what to do anymore......
ps. sorry i left the chat the other night and didnt make it back. my browser wouldnt let me do anything else with the chat up and by the time i found what i needed online everyone had already left.