Don't know how much more I can take

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Registered: 11-13-2008
Don't know how much more I can take
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Thu, 11-13-2008 - 3:58pm

Hello All,  I honestly do not know how much longer I can take seeing pregnant bellies everywhere I go.  I am tired of planning all of my friends baby showers.  I am equally tried of everyone asking me and my DH when are we going to have a baby!  Some think it was so easy but for me it is not.  I have been ttc for 6 years. (3 years naturally and 2 cycles of Clomid).


Two weeks ago was my first IUI (w/clomid and HCG), today I home tested to a BFN.  My stomach is cramping so I know AF is coming soon.  My DH wants to do another IUI if not pregnant but I don't know if I can handle anymore disappointment. 

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Registered: 10-31-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 4:11pm

Hi There,


I'm so sorry about your BFN.

~Christine~


TTC since 6/2007. 
IVF #1 Jan 2009 - BFN
IVF# 2  April 2009 - BFN
IVF# 3 July

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Registered: 01-08-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 6:06pm
(((hugs))) i'm so sorry. i know right now it feels like you can't possibly do this again. take some time to be sad/angry/devastated and when you're ready, talk about what's next for the 2 of you (whether that's continuing treatment or not). we're here for you!

ana


TTC since Sept '06. Diagnosed w/ PCOS, DH diagnosed with azoospermia Dec '06, TESA Mar '07
IVF/ICSI/AZH#1 Aug'07, BFN (6 usable eggs, 5 embies, 2 transferred, 1st beta=18, 2nd beta=12, 0 made it to blast to freeze)
IVF/ICSI#2:retrieval Nov'07 (w/ fresh TESA), FET sched Jan'08, no embryos to transfer (23 usable eggs, 12 embies, 0 made it to transfer)
IVF/ICSI#3: retrieval Mar'08, FET May'08, BFN (13 usable eggs, 7 fertilized w/ DH sperm= 0 blasts, 6 fertlized w/ DS=3 blasts, all 3 transferred, 1st beta=74, 2nd beta=64, 3rd beta=42)
1st cycle IUI/clomid/donor sperm postponed due to lack of follicular growth on 100mg clomidx5days.

ana

mom to beautiful baby lia.
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Registered: 09-11-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 6:22pm
Just wanted to send you ( ( ( ( H U G S ) ) ) ). This board is amazing with amazing ladies who are all here to help through the good the bad and the ugly. Me and DH have been trying for 3 years and sometimes I can't take it anymore either. I look forward to getting to know you.
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Registered: 11-13-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 11:31pm
Thanks ladies for all your kind words.
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Registered: 06-28-2008
Fri, 11-14-2008 - 12:14am
This board has saved my sanity, and given me hope.
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Registered: 10-31-2008
Fri, 11-14-2008 - 9:30am

Welcome de1126,


I am so sorry you have to go through the crud of IF.

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Registered: 12-26-2006
Mon, 11-17-2008 - 2:54am

hi, well I am a returnee. This is my second TTC with my second partner. I was married for 4 yrs and my infertility was one of the things that led to my marriage breakdown.
I just want to send big hugs to you, and tell you right now while it hurts so bad you don't even feel like you can breathe..... these are the times to take care of yourself. Have long baths, go for walks, cry like never before.... then breathe. Take comfort in your partner be there together and then tomorrow when you feel like you can do it anymore, you will get up and do it again, and we will be here right beside you to help you thru. I wish you strength and luck in your journey.

Dani