Embryos didn't survive the thaw!
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|Mon, 10-05-2009 - 12:43pm|
We thawed our last 2 embryos for a transfer- should have been done last Thursday...the lab called Wed afternoon and stated that they didn't make it. Get off everything I am on, stop the shots and she's sorry, take these pills and call the doc when we get another period! URGHHH!!
I don't know what to do anymore! We have a miracle child (totally unexpected, married but wasn't thought about) who is 9 (boy), and than did 3 IUI's and got nothing so we switched to IVF and got prego the first time. We had fraternal twin boys (3 years old next week). We did FET (1 embryo) and got nothing. Did FET again (2 embryos) and had a miscarriage. NOW...Our last 2 embryos didn't survive the thaw....now what? Everyone keeps saying, "Be happy with what you have, some people can't have one"! Easier said than done! My parents had always told me growing up, "reach for the moon and you'll touch the stars". I have a great occupation, amazing husband and boys. BUT my DREAM was 5 children (which sex doesn't mattter)! This kills! My hubby says we are done. He doesn't want to keep throwing money at nothing and would rather use that $15,000 to take the kids on a trip, pay off a vehicle, whatever. I totally understand his point but am not ready to part with the baby stuff yet. I am not ready to squash my dream and feel like a failure! I know I will shed many, many tears pricing all of the adorable baby clothes and toddler clothes I have saved from my 3 boys! Hubby wants to sell their toddler beds and put the twins in one queen bed. He says that it's not that he doesn't want more kids, he just wants to be able to move on and do big things as a family.
Thank you for letting me vent!!