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|Tue, 10-28-2008 - 9:13am|
My BF from college is 4 months PG, and she is finding out today what they are having. They go to my doctor, so my BF and her DH will be literally around the corner and they want me to meet them for lunch.
I love her dearly...she was my best friend in college and the years after, but it's still hard. What makes it harder is that she keeps telling me she knows what it's like to be IF, when really she doesnt...she just didn't get PG the second she tried. Her husband was, um, "emotionally stunted" and couldn't, uh...finish the job. It took him 9 months to overcome his...shortcomings, and when he did, BAM! The first time he finished, she was PG. He loves to tell people, "OH it took us 14 months! It was SO HARD!" When I want to scream at him that he is a liar and a fraud. The only thing my BF and I have in common on this PG journey is our longing for a child. That's it. She is perfectly fertile. She doesn't need to be poked and prodded, she doesn't need medication, she doesn't know what it's like for a doctor to write "infertile" across her chart. She has no idea. And it hurts me that she uses the term "infertility" like it's this badge to covet. My DH won't even go to lunch with them anymore because he cannt stand my BF's DH babbling about how tough that year was, blahblahblah. He's afraid he's going to deck him.
I am just going to meet them at Panera Bread and grab a coffee and say I am busy. I am tired today already of torturing myself.
Anyway, I need to get moving. It's 9am and I finally dragged myself out of bed and I've got so much to do. I love you ladies :) Thank you for being here.