Feeling like I want to give up

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Registered: 09-29-2010
Feeling like I want to give up
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Sat, 01-15-2011 - 10:08am
I'm pretty early on, just had my first re appt, and just feeling frustrated with everything.

There's just so much poking and prodding involved and I just don't want to do it. Its not fair that i have to go thru this when pg comes so easily to some people. I had an hsg last yr and blood tests to make sure Im ovulating, and now my new re saw something on my hsg file and i have to have a hysteroscopy to see if theres a polyp. Not a big deal, not fibroids, but i have to be put under. I also had that typical blood test for ovarian reserve. Another needle and what if somethings wrong? Also, my luteal phase is too short, so drugs for that. And then, starting iui next month, the whole process of needing an ultrasound first, and then the cathetar to desposit the sperm... And even worse if we end up moving on to ivf. And things havent been easier for dh with variocole surgery. Its been 3 wks and he can barely lift or go running. It just seems overwhelming. I know others have some much more to deal with, but it just seems unbearable right now.

Just a little rant, Im sure my emotions will flip again... And again.

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Registered: 04-12-2010
Mon, 01-17-2011 - 12:53pm

I already had an HSG and aside from slightly swollen tubes they are open.

My RE said this is the next step to see if the HSG missed anything.

I am scheduled to have it 1/26. Good luck to you as well!!!!

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Mon, 01-17-2011 - 10:42am

Thanks for all your support!!

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Registered: 04-12-2010
Mon, 01-17-2011 - 10:02am

I am sorry to hear you are having a hard time of it. I am too if it helps. I too have to go in for a hysteroscopy. My RE needs to see if there is a reason I keep having the mc/chemical pregnancies. I am upset because if there is nothing wrong htere then my only choice is IVF and my feelings on that are very mixed. Aside from the obvious I cannot afford it.

It is not fair. We are all such wonderful women who have done everything right and still cannot get the one thing we want. I am glad I have these women here to help. Venting I think is sometimes the only thing that keeps me sane.

Hang in there and hopefully we both have successful or good news baring hysteroscopies!!!

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Sun, 01-16-2011 - 11:25am
I know it all seems so overwhelming... I felt the EXACT same way. There was a point where I was ready to throw in the towel, too. It was after I had surgery and had rounds of RE tx, only to find out Dh's sperm count went from average to next to nothing. Just when I thought we were in the clear... another road block. If having 3 losses wasn't enough.
I'm so sorry to hear that your Dh is still in pain from his surgery. I h&p that he fully recovers and that you can get that BFP that you both deserve. Sending positive thoughts your way. ((Hugs))!!!
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Sat, 01-15-2011 - 2:01pm
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Sat, 01-15-2011 - 11:30am

just a little encouragement.... it is totally over whelming its completely crazy, but youll get through it. the appointments the blood work the ultrasounds its litke a full time job but eventually there is an end and probably the end you always wanted. theres no easy way to get through it but you will. Try not to look ahead just deal with what you have to do one day at a time. Your plate is full but you can def handle it ! were all here for you so dont give up... youll be in my prayers !