Having a poor me moment
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|Thu, 11-06-2008 - 12:16am|
Well my sister had her baby today well Nov 5th. His name is Jacob Jeffery. Part of me is just sooo happy for her but the other part of me aches for me. This TTC stuff was suppose to be easy and I should have popped out a kid by now. Doug and I are going to be GREAT parents why do we have to wait sooo long. I should be thinking about the blessing of my nephew but all I can think about right now is WHY ME? WHY ME? Why do I have to continue to wait for this life changing moment of having a child. I want my life to change for forever because I just had a child. I never thought my little sister would beat me to this. I also expected to have a huge belly by now because our IVF was suppose to work. I had my one little perfect embie, why didn't my embie stick? WHY WHY WHY!!! I wish you were all here with me so I would have shoulders to cry on. DH is great but he is male (it is just different for him).
Ok, I need to sleep I have to go to work tomorrow.
TTC TTC #1 since June 2006, Me 28 & DH 29, IVF #1 ICSI and AH ~ BFN, IVF #2 Jan, DX ~ DOR not POF, TTC w/ the assitance of Traditional Chinese Medicine "To get through the hardest Journey we need to take only one step at a time, but we must keep on stepping." ~Chinese Proverb