I can't take it anymore

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Registered: 04-20-2012
I can't take it anymore
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Fri, 04-20-2012 - 7:56pm

I'm here, like most women in this situation, because I need to know that someone can relate to what I'm going through. So sick of everyone telling me that "it will happen when you stop 'trying'...or I had a neighbor that went through the same thing..." I know they are just trying to be supportive, but I just wish everyone would just quit giving advice. They don't understand what it's like to have 18+ negative pregnancy tests followed by a good bawling session wondering why is this not working...I am just getting drained by this. My husband and I have been married for 7 years and have been TTC for almost 2 years.

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Registered: 04-12-2010
Sat, 04-28-2012 - 10:27pm
I am so sorry to hear of your trouble too, and even more hurt for you that your sister would take the name you are going to use. Even before I told my family I was having trouble TTC I asked my sister not to use the names I picked out. She agreed and of course it meant more once it was clear it would take me much more work to get pregnant.
I hope soon you can have your miracle.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Registered: 04-12-2010
Sat, 04-28-2012 - 10:25pm
Sorry it has taken me so long to respond to you. I just wanted to say as you can already see you are not alone. Each negative pregnancy test is like a burn that never goes away. It might dull but it is still there. As to the surgery for endometriosis - have hope! I got a hysteroscopy for them to take samples to see if I had it as well. Well my RE said that a lot of times going in to do that can stimulate the tissue to do what it is supposed to. Apparently before they had things like IVF this is what they used to do for women with multiple m/c. I am not saying this is a sure fix for everyone but in my case it I 100% believe it was a huge factor in my BFP. Perhaps the same will be true for you.
Much luck and baby dust to you.

Dixie

"Even miracles take a little time." ~ Fairy Godmother: Cinderella

TTC since April 2009

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Sat, 04-28-2012 - 5:03pm
Sheesh, I totally know how you feel. IF is such a cruel thing to have to go through. I'm the oldest grandkid and I dread the day when all of my cousins start having babies (my brother already started). Wishing you lots of baby dust and hoping that the good days stay good enough to get you through the bad ones and that your BFP will come and make it all worth it.

Britty  & DH (both 30) TTC since late 2008

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Registered: 04-20-2012
Sat, 04-21-2012 - 9:25am

Wow, I can't believe they are going to use the name you had picked out. I truly am sorry. I think all of this is so tough because we can't control it. One month I even had 5 mature follicles and husbands sperm count is off the charts...still no baby. I have done so much research on how to control my PCOS, so I have cut out sugar and gluten from my diet (and no caffiene). It seems to be doing something, I don't have cramps anymore when I have my period. Then you have someone on drugs and alcohol who doesn't want a baby and they "accidentally" get pregnant. It just doesn't make sense! I'm trying to see the big picture, but some days are harder than others, I'm sure you can relate : )

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Registered: 03-18-2008
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 9:31pm

So sorry you feel this way I to have to say I no exactly how you feel. I have been trying to get pregnant for almost 8 years now I did get pregnant naturally 1 year after trying and misscarried. Since then I have been dignosed with mild PCOS (still have my period every month I dont get why I'm not pregnant yet). I have took about 4 rounds of Clomid with 2 rounds making me ovulate. DH and I have talked about doing a IUI but we dont really ahve that kind of money right now.

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